chao

chao. means hello in vietnam. haha..think so, thats what google said. so it has been 4 days hanis since hanis left for Vietnam. without doubt, even though we dont usually me around this time, his absence here in singapore is truly felt. hope ur doing fine there Hanis. come back soon and we'll meet up and im gonna hug you once again ;)

so, exam week starting next week. only two weeks of hard studying then year 1 is over. i just want to clear math and chem fast because its nerve wrecking thinking about the possibility that i would'nt do well for the papers. and, after exams, its hardcore training for the coming IVP end of march. just a short post here..having neck pains doesnt help during exam preparation. whatever it is, its all up to Allah's willing. good day friends :)

smile even when u think its not worth smiling

its like in a race and im almost there at the finishing line for this race. its the final push to the end. projects and presentation are over and done with. the final push is exams which is coming in about 1 week time. you know in a race, usually people get exhausted at the end. breathing like mad to get hold of a breathe. well..im not in that dire state..yet! oh well..i just got back chemistry test result and it is somehow expected as i was not ready for the test. but guess what? it only motivates me to do better in exams. hopefully, just maybe, InsyaAllah i will! do well in exams and go thru to 2nd year with gpa higher than 3.

haha..above is just to make me more motivated to study harder for exams. finally get to catch a break after the last 3 days of rushing for datelines. well..presentation today went quite smooth. except for my pekat malay accent that somehow made my english sounds weird sometimes. haha..what to do, i speak malay most of the time. honestly, malay speaking slang, i just wish they could just keep their mouth shut cos its irritating. yeaa..thats what i feel.

okay..silat. one of the reason why i didnt do well for the last chemistry test. hah.its one day before test and i happily went for training. nah..no regrets. its only a small class quiz. so there's friendly with NTU this coming saturday. and im counting the hours for that day to arrive. cant wait to have friendly again. the last friendly was with SIM and well...i won my match! actually..i won both my match. the first match, i accidentally dislocate somebody's knee. i feel very very sorry for that. its has been about 3 weeks..i hope the guy is walking normally now. yeaa..i hope no accidents will happen this coming saturday.

since i have time, i'll just post something more. okay, it has been a long time since i wrote about this. relationship. let me be open about this okay..there's this girl. she is cute. she is always cheerful. she never fails to make me smile alone. yep..signs of me having a crush. i hope now its more than a crush. i dont think its a crush. yea..love is blind. hopefully, she's the one cos i cant bear fall in love with another. heh..gatal! its normal okay..you feel it, i feel it. dont vomit or anything k. i think thats about it. hope u guys are in good health and dont forget to wash ur leg before sleep! :)

have faith

I find myself rather sensitive when it comes to issue that involve me as someone who is not valued. to put it simply, i dont like to feel discarded, left out or not appreciated. yea thats me. when that happens, i feel mad, i feel rejected, suddenly i feel alone, even though there is classroom full of friends. i guess everyone wants to be appreciated. but to a certain extent, you cant expect that all the time. sometimes, its best to feel this way, that is, feeling lonely. yknow why? because it makes you realize that, nobody gonna stay with you forever. in some point of your life, u are gonna be alone, for sure. everyone needs a time of their own.

"Believe in God. Trust nothing that is made of flesh, blood and bone"- somebody in fb

begin with an end in mind

long disappearance. well..school and assignments just cant get enough of me. part and parcel of life..*sigh*

Funny how when i really want to lose weight, i realize that i do eat a lot. i want to lose at least 2 kg. and here i am, eating like as if i want to gain 5 kg! cant control my nafsu for eating you know. the reason why i want to lose weight? i need to be in class C for the coming silat competition. so that i can bully the class C people..muahaha! chey..like real only bully, actually most of the seniors and expert2 are in class D, which is my current class, if i dont lose weight, my chances of going to the competition is pretty2 low. so yea..still got 1 more week to lose weight!

I wonder how my life would be in 10 years time. i'd be 27 yrs old. i want to have a car license, so that i can travel easily. i want to have a family by then. hmm..what job would i be working? life is unpredictable sometimes, well, most of the time. oh well..i just hope in 10 years time, my parents are still healthy, strong and smiling, my friends are still my friends, and i have a stable job insyaAllah. :)

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Im not good at talking with crowds i realize. you know when there's more than 20 pairs of eyes, that is 40 eyeballs, staring at you. your heart beats fast and words are coming out of your mouth but you are not sure what you are saying. to an untrained person like me, its pretty hard. well..it takes time to be perfect. it takes practice and im just doing that.

Silat. I've been closely attached to this newly-found sport for me. Never thought i'd be serious to train hard for competitions. well..here i am, going for every training, trying to perfect my kicks and punches. its not that i want to go out there and hurt people, its just that, the people in this team itself. the seniors, as a whole, i really admire them. its that unity you see in a team.

hmm..i've not posted about my recent friendly match with Temasek poly. there's not much i could say, but i was pretty shocked to be named the "best pesilat" for that day. haha! i almost threw my handphone off because i really didnt expect to get that award and i was msg-ing when the captain was annoucing. it was a stepping stone for me. im still amateur. theres still an ocean more things that i need to learn to really be known as best pesilat. whatever it is, i think im sticking to this sport and am gonna excel in it. do support me yea friends? :)