Hanyalah setitis nikmatMu di bumi.
Ku mula sedar yang..cinta telah melalaikan diriku. apa la sangat erti cinta. biarlah..When the time comes, i will be with the right person..amin :)
September 27, 2011
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didnt realise i had over 100 post till today. i guess no one comes here anymore. if you do, just leave some comments on the chatbox orite :)
ah yes. yesterday was great. Raya outing with fellow classmates. had two raya outing previously. was awesome too.
I actually felt nervous that my friends are coming over to my house. my mum was not at home. i wanted them to feel comfortable and treat them well in my house. so yea..since my mum's not cooking. i became the cook! first time cooking for guests. got the recipe from my friend's mum. it turned out quite well..just a lil too dry. just a sum up of what happened yesterday. we started of at around 1230pm and we finish off the guy's house first at the west. then we arrived at the east at around 8+? fortunately some two of our chinese friends could drive and was very kind to provide us with the transportation. thanks alot guys :) so yea..we actually ended the whole outing at around 130am? hahaa..i was shock myself.
so she proved me wrong. i thought she would'nt came. i cant sleep the night before..thinking about whats going to happen the next day. not about what to wear or how to cook. about seeing her after so long of not seeing her. so i just smiled at her. asking random questions. the same smirk she she replies my question :/ i just dont know what else i can do. sometimes i feel so pathetic. sometimes i feel like giving up. but its just so hard to give up these feelings you know. i may look normal when talking in front of her, but when she replies with that smirk, i just...feel so numb.
"I dont understand why destiny allowed some people to meet when there's no way for them to be together" - tumblr
aiseybedah. i guess she really wants to show me that, she doesnt like me liking her. i understand. for that, i respect her as a person and i will try hard not to let out these feelings. slowly but surely. thats all folks.
Assalamu'alaikum.
ah yes. yesterday was great. Raya outing with fellow classmates. had two raya outing previously. was awesome too.
I actually felt nervous that my friends are coming over to my house. my mum was not at home. i wanted them to feel comfortable and treat them well in my house. so yea..since my mum's not cooking. i became the cook! first time cooking for guests. got the recipe from my friend's mum. it turned out quite well..just a lil too dry. just a sum up of what happened yesterday. we started of at around 1230pm and we finish off the guy's house first at the west. then we arrived at the east at around 8+? fortunately some two of our chinese friends could drive and was very kind to provide us with the transportation. thanks alot guys :) so yea..we actually ended the whole outing at around 130am? hahaa..i was shock myself.
so she proved me wrong. i thought she would'nt came. i cant sleep the night before..thinking about whats going to happen the next day. not about what to wear or how to cook. about seeing her after so long of not seeing her. so i just smiled at her. asking random questions. the same smirk she she replies my question :/ i just dont know what else i can do. sometimes i feel so pathetic. sometimes i feel like giving up. but its just so hard to give up these feelings you know. i may look normal when talking in front of her, but when she replies with that smirk, i just...feel so numb.
"I dont understand why destiny allowed some people to meet when there's no way for them to be together" - tumblr
aiseybedah. i guess she really wants to show me that, she doesnt like me liking her. i understand. for that, i respect her as a person and i will try hard not to let out these feelings. slowly but surely. thats all folks.
Assalamu'alaikum.
September 9, 2011
andaikumenjadipelangi
sudikah engkau menjadi awannya.
Haish. its too late to turn back time. whats done is done. I've made wrong moves, did stupid things that somehow made you 'afraid' of me. i realize that only after my friend told me. you know, when someone is in love, he sees nothing. he sees nothing that is wrong or weird. when actually what he's doing is all wrong and weird. in a sense, people who are not in love will not normally do. get me?
that long journey just to get what she wants. the long wait just to see that face. that sacrifice just to see that smile. its all somehow, stupid. for now it is. what for? all that effort if the person doesn't like you. people will tell the most obvious thing to do. forget her. move on you idiot.
but someone told me a different answer. tell her.
maybe i should? maybe i should not. i am afraid things will change. we might not look at each other again. we will not talk to each other again. awkward. but its true what my friend said. if im just gonna keep all this feelings inside, i'll never really know whats going on. the feelings gonna kill me inside. but there's this thing that keeps me from telling her.
apart from the awkwardness. i know, its not right to tell what i feel. maybe i'll just act normal. like as if nothing is happening in me. im trying hard to fight these feelings. maybe, someday, things will change for the better.
Only Allah knows.
Assalamu'alaikum.
Haish. its too late to turn back time. whats done is done. I've made wrong moves, did stupid things that somehow made you 'afraid' of me. i realize that only after my friend told me. you know, when someone is in love, he sees nothing. he sees nothing that is wrong or weird. when actually what he's doing is all wrong and weird. in a sense, people who are not in love will not normally do. get me?
that long journey just to get what she wants. the long wait just to see that face. that sacrifice just to see that smile. its all somehow, stupid. for now it is. what for? all that effort if the person doesn't like you. people will tell the most obvious thing to do. forget her. move on you idiot.
but someone told me a different answer. tell her.
maybe i should? maybe i should not. i am afraid things will change. we might not look at each other again. we will not talk to each other again. awkward. but its true what my friend said. if im just gonna keep all this feelings inside, i'll never really know whats going on. the feelings gonna kill me inside. but there's this thing that keeps me from telling her.
apart from the awkwardness. i know, its not right to tell what i feel. maybe i'll just act normal. like as if nothing is happening in me. im trying hard to fight these feelings. maybe, someday, things will change for the better.
Only Allah knows.
Assalamu'alaikum.
June 1, 2011
Affectionate
Its true what my friend said. I am an affectionate person. i tend to be too close too people. close in terms of emotions. i am easily hurt by comments by someone who i see as my close friends. I cant handle direct remarks well. so yea. i just got a direct remark from my friend just now. now i feel so shitty. feels like giving up silat. but yes, i shouldnt be.
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