dreams

Can’t accept reality?

Who cares? Nothing is gonna change it. You have to face it bro. Even when u think its impossible to reach ur dreams, u can always dream another dream. But it’s hard to dream a new dream...because, the previous dream is no ordinary dream. A new dream? It’s somehow, undreamable.

living as it is.

It’s the last day of the week. And i slacked the whole day. Firstly, i woke up around 1pm. Then sat down at my bed thinking whether i should go to school for the silat event. End up snoozing again and woke up at 3. So i missed it. Lesson learnt, never make decisions on your bed, especially when u just woke up. Really wanted to go.but yeaa its over.


Soo..its gonna be a tough week ahead with mid semester test around the corner. And I heard dikir training is gonna be held every day from next week onwards as the competition is just about 2 weeks away. Its okay..i’ll just smile my way through these tough weeks. I hope my body can take it and won’t fall sick. Amin.


You are the right choice and im just in a fantasy...

Hey world!

and i say hey! what a wonderful kind of day! if we could learn to work and play! and get along with each other. (theme song of the cartoon, hey arthur)

so..in a happy mood today. had a wonderful dream last night, and it felt soo real. did not want to wake up, but have to because of training. wanna know what i dreamt? well..it involves two person in the park, seating down, having a great time, holding hands. yeaa..its just a dream beb. people say what you dream would usually happen the opposite. syirik la sume ni ehh..tak leh percaye.

Had Draga training just now..it was scorching hot beb. lucky i brought a cap.
To say, i am proud to be in Draga. the bond that is created, can never be broken, Insyaallah. soo..theres a lot of assignment waiting to be completed. lot of revision to be done. and theres dikir on monday! this is what keeps me going beb. something that makes you be grateful for life and not live by the mercy of grades, expectations and money.
so far..im doing fine in school. and i am glad i joined the malay language camp. through there, I met many wonderful and blessed people and i learned to become a better Muslim. soo..Malays coming to sp nxt yr, pls come for the Malay language camp, its worth every second of ur life. :) thats all folks..sayonara!

kisah kasih

you know how crushes can really make you excited one moment and feel down not long after that? well..you just have to face it. when the person you have crushed on suddenly came out of the toilet and you were coincidencely passing by the toilet and she said something to you. like hey! hello! hearing the voice can really make you feel high high high. then u might say to urself, "aiseymannn.. she just made my day beb". and you smiled the whole day, thinking how wonderful it would be to be with him/her. then u would pass by the toilet everyday, hoping for a dejavu. but then, reality gave u a pinch in the nipple. u realise she/he was older than u. and start thinking, am i mature enough for her/him? am i good looking enough for her/him? it is even possible for me to get in a relationship with her/him? soo..u sat down thinking..kinda emoing by the side. all bad thoughts came rushing while the good thoughts seems miles away. then u login ur facebook acc and scrolled for something that you think would solve ur problem momentarily. it acts as an aspirin actually. ur eyes caught what u were looking for..and all the bad thoughts suddenly disappear. U stared blankly at ur laptop's screen. and ur frens would probably say u r one loser..stalking people on facebook. Under high influence of aspirin, u were oblivious to their remarks. u had enough, then shut down the comp. u smile again. and this goes on till the crush fades off or turn out to be a a happy ending.

Malay camp was a blast! get to know lot of new friends. picture above is my group during the camp. and we call ourselves, Biru Keliru. the tallest guy and the person holding the prize is our facilitator for the camp. in all, i miss every moment i had during the camp.

so, school term starts next week. had orientation last monday, and i found out that...my course only got 5 guys out of 48 students. something to be happy about? hope so..haha. while my other sp friends in the engineering course are whining bcos their course have only 2 -3 girls. haha..ok2..so what..its not about the girls right? its about our diploma cert when we leave sp in 3 years time, InsyaAllah.

and so..im confused right now. i don't know whether to join track and field which will eventually help me with my course , or to join the silat or dikir barat team which im really interested in. if i were to join both, then there goes my comitment for the cca. hmm..must think about this very deeply.yea..i miss my friends so much. all go to different sch..wonder how their school's life is like. hope theirs is as great or even better than mine.

one more thing, i realised that i'm an awfully shy person. seeing other students who raise their voice while i kept my voice down is somewhat frustrating. i hope i will eventually overcome this shyness in time to come...because i dont want to lose out to others just because of this fear of being criticised by others. yeah! which brings me to this question, what is the cause of shyness? to say i was the captain of jupiter and track and field team..but not a good one though. why am i still afraid to face the crowd....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

thx for reading anw...cheers! =)