November 17, 2009

they say life is about choices.
what if we dnt have choices.
then u'll say life is unfair.
well thats life.
you cant always get what you desire.
if you can, then ure one spoilt brat. =)
yeaa..emotional intro again. just bear with it okays..=D My body is damn aching right now. just came back from training after a long break bcos of examinations. somebody! anybody! pls massage me! hehe..lame...i noe.
haiz..the feeling of being left out is never nice. well..i guess 75% of my life ,i have always been left out. nah..its ok..standing by the side watching the whole thing is going is fine wif me.
yea right. who am i kidding. for the damn fcuking reasons..i dunno why im terribly shy. im trying break this shell from me, its working slowly,but still, i cant be as outspoken, as lively as hanis yaqub or faizul
yeaa..everyone is different. i cant be someone who im not. agree?
they'll make the joke. and my job is just to laugh. simple dimple.
yea..they are the closest friends i have(not forgetting rafie), so syukran for that.
till the next post then. Sayonara bebeh...!

November 13, 2009

Its not over

exams finally over.

but the joy is not what i pictured it to be.
no more cross country...
house practices..
lessons..
$1 nasi lemak..
hang outs after sch..
and much more..
packing my textbooks just now was quite an emotional story. haiz..............so this is how secondary school life ends.

yeaa...again i am emotional. sory about that kays..haha. aiya.....for what so emo right? life has to go on..and these memories are what that makes us stronger to face adulthood. (chey..tgh semangat ni). so im goona cherish all the great and bad moments i had in boon lay...

thts all folks............have a great day ahead!

November 6, 2009

what does it mean to have it?
status? dignity? or just for the fun of it?
it had caused enough hurt and pain.
no matter how many times i try, its the same.
do they appreaciate the concern?
or my concern was not of necessary.irony.
even the best smile cant win their hearts.
all i noe, its not as easy as abc.
i bet its harder than the biology paper just now.
im trying to understand this.
i wanna feel like my friends do.
having shoulder to lie ur head.
having someone who understands and care for you.
what the hell is it i am talking about?
Relationships.
yeaa...enough of emotional writing. hmm...guess wad!! o level is gonna end pretty soon..!
i never thought this day would come so fast. so far paper is okay...except for physics,geography and BIOLogy. hmm...where's maths?
math was ok..!!!i am trying to be positive here =)
there's still paper next week. gonna bury myself with papers again....haizzzzzzzzzzzzz
till the next post then. thanks for reading.