holding on

Pheww...one week has passed and i was down for 2 days. I had quite a heavy migraine. During one of the tutorials, I even slept on the floor and the lecturer can’t be bothered. Maybe she did’nt even noticed I was snoozing under the table...haha. so i went to see the doctor yesterday. My queue number was so far away. The migraine attacked me again and i was too weak to handle it. Being not in the right state of mind, i just lay my body at the corner of the clinic. Everyone passing by gave me a weird look. Then one kind achi came and lift me up. She asked me whether she can have my queue number so that she can ask the doctor to call me up immediately. I’ll never forget her kindness. She told me everyone outside was scared seeing me lying down there, some even thought i was drunk...haha. Alhamdulillah, am recovering already.

Dikir barat. Training everyday just gives me this sucky feeling. I know competition is next sat 5 jun, but i m just not ready for such a big event. I came in and i noe nothing about dikir, the next thing i noe is that they are sending names for competition. I think they should be more patient, build a good team, then send people for comp. Now what they are having are just few experienced people with mostly freshies who just came to know how dikir is like. Selection is next Monday or Tuesday. I dun really look forward to being selected . but if selected, then i’ll do my best to bring glory for Keturunan Putra! :)

dreams

Can’t accept reality?

Who cares? Nothing is gonna change it. You have to face it bro. Even when u think its impossible to reach ur dreams, u can always dream another dream. But it’s hard to dream a new dream...because, the previous dream is no ordinary dream. A new dream? It’s somehow, undreamable.

living as it is.

It’s the last day of the week. And i slacked the whole day. Firstly, i woke up around 1pm. Then sat down at my bed thinking whether i should go to school for the silat event. End up snoozing again and woke up at 3. So i missed it. Lesson learnt, never make decisions on your bed, especially when u just woke up. Really wanted to go.but yeaa its over.


Soo..its gonna be a tough week ahead with mid semester test around the corner. And I heard dikir training is gonna be held every day from next week onwards as the competition is just about 2 weeks away. Its okay..i’ll just smile my way through these tough weeks. I hope my body can take it and won’t fall sick. Amin.


You are the right choice and im just in a fantasy...

Hey world!

and i say hey! what a wonderful kind of day! if we could learn to work and play! and get along with each other. (theme song of the cartoon, hey arthur)

so..in a happy mood today. had a wonderful dream last night, and it felt soo real. did not want to wake up, but have to because of training. wanna know what i dreamt? well..it involves two person in the park, seating down, having a great time, holding hands. yeaa..its just a dream beb. people say what you dream would usually happen the opposite. syirik la sume ni ehh..tak leh percaye.

Had Draga training just now..it was scorching hot beb. lucky i brought a cap.
To say, i am proud to be in Draga. the bond that is created, can never be broken, Insyaallah. soo..theres a lot of assignment waiting to be completed. lot of revision to be done. and theres dikir on monday! this is what keeps me going beb. something that makes you be grateful for life and not live by the mercy of grades, expectations and money.
so far..im doing fine in school. and i am glad i joined the malay language camp. through there, I met many wonderful and blessed people and i learned to become a better Muslim. soo..Malays coming to sp nxt yr, pls come for the Malay language camp, its worth every second of ur life. :) thats all folks..sayonara!

kisah kasih

you know how crushes can really make you excited one moment and feel down not long after that? well..you just have to face it. when the person you have crushed on suddenly came out of the toilet and you were coincidencely passing by the toilet and she said something to you. like hey! hello! hearing the voice can really make you feel high high high. then u might say to urself, "aiseymannn.. she just made my day beb". and you smiled the whole day, thinking how wonderful it would be to be with him/her. then u would pass by the toilet everyday, hoping for a dejavu. but then, reality gave u a pinch in the nipple. u realise she/he was older than u. and start thinking, am i mature enough for her/him? am i good looking enough for her/him? it is even possible for me to get in a relationship with her/him? soo..u sat down thinking..kinda emoing by the side. all bad thoughts came rushing while the good thoughts seems miles away. then u login ur facebook acc and scrolled for something that you think would solve ur problem momentarily. it acts as an aspirin actually. ur eyes caught what u were looking for..and all the bad thoughts suddenly disappear. U stared blankly at ur laptop's screen. and ur frens would probably say u r one loser..stalking people on facebook. Under high influence of aspirin, u were oblivious to their remarks. u had enough, then shut down the comp. u smile again. and this goes on till the crush fades off or turn out to be a a happy ending.