Quality time

When you're alone, doing nothing, lots of unthinkable things come to your mind. Well, it is, for me.

Today was one silent, peaceful sunday. My father went fishing, my mum went to Johor, and my bro busy with his work. me, i stayed at home and spend my time watching TV and read up some books i bought last time.

about the unthinkable things. its not things like walking around the house naked or shout at the top of your lungs in the toilet. but its the things like, what happens if my closest friends one day leave me. what if my parents were not around anymore. these things can bring tears. the only thing i can do is, to pray, pray and pray that everyone around me is blessed and live a happy life here and after.

short post i guess..till next post, take care people :)

warning!

Once again, i feel like writing about, relationships.

Im only 17, but it has come to me that i really need someone, to share the fascinating stories that i had during the day or even to share a smile with someone who really appreciates it. Psychology, it is proven that at this age, if intimacy is not achieved, there will be feeling of rejection, and we tend to feel ostracized. well..i dont really feel rejected or whatsoever, i just feel, empty.

*long sigh*

Just glad that im happy, though not so happy. still, Alhamdullilah :)

track and feel

Finally today i went for track and field in sp. i wanted to join since last sem but did'nt get the chance to. so yeaa..track mates were friendly, some gave me a welcoming look..some look at me as if i am a walking doublecheeburger. get it? hahah..i mean they give me a weird look ah.

okay..after long disappearance from the track, it feels soo good to put back those shoes where it belongs. the moment i start the first sprint, i knew i still had the "skills." but now, im having backaches, leg aches everywhere la aches.

i have three pimples on my face. my friend ask me, why the sudden pimple bloom. then i said, one pimple stands for a girl that is in my mind. haha. and so she said, lets see which pimple burst first, tht will be the girl i'll be with. sooo..i showed to the pimple beside my eye and said, this is Liyana, then above my lips, i said jerina, then at my cheeks and i said khalisah. guess which one burst instantly. serious..i point at the cheek and it goes "pop!" hahaha!

hehe. cheeky pimple. i guess thats all for this post..till next time okay! take care peeps :)

Muhammad Nur Iqbal

Today is a very blessed day for my family. Firstly because its my father's birthday. secondly, because there is a new member in the family. welcome to the club Iqbal!

yeaa..my newly wed bro just got his first son. Alhamdullilah..everything went smoothly. cant wait to get my hands laid on him. my father was one happy chicken when news came that the child was born. well..there's gonna be two birthdays on the 24 of oct from next yr onwards. my father was like.."kau tgk je, budak tu da besar nnt pendiam, rajin kerje, hensem mcm atok die" haha! i gave him this face -_-. cheyy..no la..i just hope the child grows up to be someone kind hearted, a filial son and respect the elderly. amin.

finally today get to meet hanis faizul and yaqub. even better, saw khalisah! haha. okay..sorry if we stalk you like some desprados yea? hopefully, one day, get to talk to you :)

okaayy..tmr sch at 8. first lesson is Fitness and Wellness throughout lifespan. the days just gets better. alhamdullilah. till next post! take care bebeh :)

ps:Rafie, all the best for o levels!

Finally, i finished Iqra' 6. a moment i'll never forget, the last few sentence in Iqra' 6, an emotional one just now..haha. so next ngaji i'll start with Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah.. :)

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maybe next time..love ya!

Self Discovery

Today, i spent the whole day with this someone whom i really wish to know further. We went to geylang today to shop. cheyy..no la, i went alone. I want to make the post end like this.."and that someone was me" tapi tak menjadi. hahah. so yeaa..today i decided to go shopping at geylang. I bought myself a white baju kurung, a white songkok, and 2 minyak atar! all this for the friday night class.

Sometimes, its good to spend quality time alone. though a i really wanted to go with a buddy, but its alright. The journey to geylang was quite short bcos i was engrossed with the book im reading. its a book about our past 'Ulama. A great book i borrowed from the library. so yea..actually lots of things are in mind right now.

sometimes..i think im born to be lonely. seriously..i never really had lots of friends when i was a kid. i used to play bicycle alone roaming around bukit panjang.i remembered crashing onto a bust stop pillar and laughed at myself for being so clumsy. my best friend when i was a kid was a bicycle. nah..things change right? im still finding who i really him. for all i know, when im alone, Allah will always be there. amin.

Shucks. school starts tomorrow. another round of stress all over again. Its okay, im gonna hold my head up and stand on the frontline with my spears and conquer this semester! :)

syukur

"semua antara nak dengan tak nak"

The quote above seems simple, but it really means a lot. Its a quote from Ya'qub, and it stayed on with me since then. He said this when were out lepaking by the esplanade with Hanis. It was before school reopens. Yaqub went to republic poly, Faizul went to ngee Ann poly, i went to Sp, Hanis went to his culinary school. all went to different directions. Alhamdullilah, we are still close friends right now. things didnt change like we thought it would change. Only God knows how glad i am. and Rafie, stay strong during this hard times, its gonna be over soon :)

"ape2 jdi walaupun kite pgi seperate skolah, hrap kite masih rapat mcm skrng" -Hanis, 11 Jan 2010, 22:19

penghuni rumah orang cacat otak.

trip to Institute of Mental Health (IMH) was both memorable and an eye opener. really..my eyes open quite big that day..haha. let me just share what happen on that day.

the place was at buangkok, met at 230. it was organised by sp ang ngee ann poly. haha..ok straight to the impt point. we reached IMH and was warmly welcomed by the staff there. we we briefed on what to do and what not to do with the patients. i remembered the guy telling us, if the patients asked us for money, just say we left it at home.

okay..so we were brought to the patients ward. words cant express how i felt upon seeing their faces stuck on the glass door, like as if the ward was a volcano and the patients are the lava that is gonna blow out of the volcano at any moment. we sanitised our hands and entered the room. man..the patients straight away offered us a handshake. some were shouting at the top of their lungs.."hello!" most of them were old..but their expression and happiness upon seeing us made them look as though they were toddlers who is excited upon seeing a new toy.

we shook hands with most of the patient...then we started with our activity. first was, we played "passing the balloon game" whoever holds the balloon when the music stops, have to come to the center and do a forfeit. hahah..and the guy before me wanted to sabo me. wth..i just snatch the balloon away from him..to think about im quite mean seh. haha..he was a patient there by the way :)

then we move to the next activity. we gathered around a table and taught them how to make rabbits out of a hankerchief! some of them..they had trembling hands..i dunno whats the medical term..but its a kind of abnormality. they had soo fun much doing these stuff. some were laughing all the way. i made one rabbit and gave to the uncle im closest with me on that day. he sang "kamelia" by ramli sarip..hahah..soo hilarious!

we sang..sat down, watch mr bean the movie. had small talks. mann..its an experience i will never forget. i take this opportunity, to share with you what i really felt on that day. to those who has a perception that IMH is only a place for crazy people..think again. its more that a mental institute. its a place where these people whom were not given care and love by their family members who cant afford to tahan their behaviour and they were placed there, some till their last breathe. some were even sent there since the 60s. imagine their emptiness..even a stranger visiting them..could bring soo much joy and happiness. how heartless can mankind be. and we say we are lonely when we dont have bf or gf....may Allah place all these patients in the glorious Jannah after so much pain and suffering in dunia..amin.

Results are out!!

Actually the result came out on monday. i got GPA of 3.175. just 0.015 to get 3.2..what the helll.

hah..but okay laa..alhamdullilah!

was quite shock with the grades i got. so here's the result!

Mathematics: D

Chemistry: C+

Food Science:B+

Health and Wellness: B+

Nutrition: A

Psychology:A

Biology: A

wooo..not bragging or what laa ehh..just that even my parents dunno my result. soo..might as well i share it with my friends. all the hardwork quite paid off. Next sem, please be nice :)

I cant write as beautiful, but i just want to let out whatever that is in my mind. Today i saw aqa at mrt. okayy..haha just something random. today karaoke session was not as awesome cos we ended earlier. nevertheless, had a rocking time with my rocking peeps. Yaqub had the most powerful voice, Hanis has the sweetest voice, Faizul, i just love his chipmunk voice..hehe.

im still single. kinda empty, but as time goes, im getting used to it. yea..i do have somebody in mind, but i just dun think its the right time. i had small talks with chef today ( the chef working at siam kitchen). she said, "go find your darling, you are ready i know" haha! she talk as though she had known me for years. i dunno wad she means..but yeaa. guys my age would probably had a few relationshops in their life. i had one, but it did'nt worked out well. sorry if she's reading this..i should'nt have ask for a relationship if i knew i was'nt ready. that was one lesson learnt. since then, i was afraid of relationships.

tak habes2 psl mataer je ehh. hmm..right now, i just want to focus on what i want to achieve in life. (ehem2) i've volunteered myself to provide my service in IMH this coming saturday. they said we'll be playing games with the patients there. kinda reluctant..but this chance comes by not often. my english teruk laa..sorry2. soo..i just wanna feel how is it like to be around someone different. hopefully it'll be a fruitful day for me.

today's post is quite long huh. i still want to write. working and going out with friends lately, i've been missing quality time with my mum. she's busy with her food stall, i never get a chance to see her sometimes. me going back late everyday. its just that, i miss her very the much. A lot more in my mind..but i think i should stop here. Good luck for those taking their exams! sawadikappp :D

today i kicked a chair onto my brother. cool right....haha. he is one irritating ass. anyhow kick my stuff around. so i just kick anything near me onto him. serve him right. its just that, he has no respect or whatsoever for me. the other time i remembered him kicking my bag aside when he wanted to walk. its like what the hell! today i just bought a new shoe, and i put one side beside the door. he wanted to walk there, and there was a huge way beside it. noo..he dont want to..he just kick aside my shoe. i was okay with that at first..lava was still not at its peak.

then i went inside my room. then i heard him kick my shoe further away from the door like as if my shoe was a pile of garbage. that is how the lava blew up and a wooden chair flew onto his leg.

sometimes, i wonder what would happen if i were to come out earlier than my brother. would i treat him the same way he treat me? i just wish my brother were somebody else sometimes. we are totally two diff people. sometimes i hate him, sometimes i just wish he was not my brother. thats how bad i hate him. yea..hopefully things will change in future.