begin with an end in mind

long disappearance. well..school and assignments just cant get enough of me. part and parcel of life..*sigh*

Funny how when i really want to lose weight, i realize that i do eat a lot. i want to lose at least 2 kg. and here i am, eating like as if i want to gain 5 kg! cant control my nafsu for eating you know. the reason why i want to lose weight? i need to be in class C for the coming silat competition. so that i can bully the class C people..muahaha! chey..like real only bully, actually most of the seniors and expert2 are in class D, which is my current class, if i dont lose weight, my chances of going to the competition is pretty2 low. so yea..still got 1 more week to lose weight!

I wonder how my life would be in 10 years time. i'd be 27 yrs old. i want to have a car license, so that i can travel easily. i want to have a family by then. hmm..what job would i be working? life is unpredictable sometimes, well, most of the time. oh well..i just hope in 10 years time, my parents are still healthy, strong and smiling, my friends are still my friends, and i have a stable job insyaAllah. :)

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Im not good at talking with crowds i realize. you know when there's more than 20 pairs of eyes, that is 40 eyeballs, staring at you. your heart beats fast and words are coming out of your mouth but you are not sure what you are saying. to an untrained person like me, its pretty hard. well..it takes time to be perfect. it takes practice and im just doing that.

Silat. I've been closely attached to this newly-found sport for me. Never thought i'd be serious to train hard for competitions. well..here i am, going for every training, trying to perfect my kicks and punches. its not that i want to go out there and hurt people, its just that, the people in this team itself. the seniors, as a whole, i really admire them. its that unity you see in a team.

hmm..i've not posted about my recent friendly match with Temasek poly. there's not much i could say, but i was pretty shocked to be named the "best pesilat" for that day. haha! i almost threw my handphone off because i really didnt expect to get that award and i was msg-ing when the captain was annoucing. it was a stepping stone for me. im still amateur. theres still an ocean more things that i need to learn to really be known as best pesilat. whatever it is, i think im sticking to this sport and am gonna excel in it. do support me yea friends? :)