hikayat semalam

finally get some time to settle down and really put aside all school stuffs since tommorow is holiday. hmm.. it has been a while since i visit my relatives, even though we live nearby. things has changed. ever since my late grandmother passed away..i begin to feel our ties drift apart. we're still close though, but not like it used to.

When i was in primary 3, i live in jurong and my school was at chua chu kang. i would wake up early in the morning, eager to ride with my father to the bus interchange. my father had no car, no motorcycle. just a normal bicycle with a seat at the back. i remembered last time we didnt had a water heater, and sitting at the back of the bicycle while the wind blowing onto the face early in the morning, was somehow, a thrilling experience. one of the reason why i love morning breeze, it always reminds me to  cherish what my father had gone through to raise me up.

so here goes. since my grandmother lives in cck, i would go to her house after school everyday.
 my uncle lives with her. so i had cousins who were younger than me. everyday, i would play under the block with my cousins. all them were girls by the way. so we would play soccer, badminton and all that sports. after a hard day playing, we would go up. i have to wash up to get ready to back home at jurong. took 172. once reach bus interchange, amongs the crowd, i would see my father waiting for me with his bicycle..a ride back home..i missed those times :') so each day goes on like this till i was in primary 6..

the day i remembered filled with tears. as i rush back to my grandmother house..hoping to meet my cousins and play a new game. but as i stepped into the house, i saw a figure wrapped up in white cloth, laying still. surrounded by familiar faces, weeping and staring into the ground in disbelief. it has been 5 years since she left us.

hmm..maybe i'll continue next time. till then, Assalamu'alaikum..

A week after

so it has been a week since school started. just a little something to share about my course. things are going pretty well. i kinda like all the modules this sem..except for one..biostatic or something. hopefully im geared up for this sem..Bismillah.

yang tersirat

Imagine. imagine  the rain doesnt fall in droplets. it falls as a cloud. the world would be drenched. the paddy fields would be destroyed. the fruits farms vanished. Subhanallah. if we we were to count Allah's blessings, we wont be able to. for everything we have is all with His blessings. MasyaAllah..

somebody told me about the raindrops thingy. just the thought of that blessing from Allah, it just makes me feel so, sinful. cant deny that sometimes, the worldly things like working for money, meeting friends.. seems to take much more of my time then i spent on remembering Allah. 

But i guess, it all comes down to niat. insyaAllah..never forget to ask Allah to proper our niat in everything we do. when working, maybe our niat could be, we want to ease the burden of our family, or help those around us who are in need. when meeting friends..we could place our niat as to increase our faith towards Allah by practising good moral values as showed by our prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. saying the salam, smile..doing dakwah. insyaAllah..with His guidance.

just a reminder, specially to myself..Assalamu'alaikum readers :)

Garrett

maybe the title doesnt suit what im gonna post today. its just that i just munched on a packet of garret popcorn and now my jaws are quite tired.

so. i guess it went okay. i had more to say, but it just didnt came to words. but at least, i said what i wanted to say. which is for us not to be strangers. i hear and i know now. i guess what she wants is for me to move on and treat her as a friend. i am treating her as a friend. its just that, sometimes my feelings get in the way. i understand. for somebody who came from an all-girl school, coming to poly is a big change. having to adapt to a school environment where there is, guys. so im not alone. she treats the others the same way too i guess. if i would knew better, i should have not look into that eyes during that moment i fell for you. for, i troubled our relationship as a friend. now, the whole spsc knows. but who cares. like she said..let them with their comments.

above all, i truly appreciate her agreeing to meet up. i nvr thought she would want to. hah..she wanted her friend to accompany her actually. but yea. Im not into relationshiops now. just hoping to meet somebody, whom i can share my stories with, who is there when everything else fails. maybe its her, maybe its somebody else.

never to forget, our Creator, Allah s.w.t In our chase for dunia, we tend to forget that we have doa as a weapon. we have Allah who always looks after upon us. InsyaAllah..from now on, things will change. 3 more semester to go. The diploma, thats our main aim.

 thanks once again haziqah. I thank Allah for meeting me with you. for, you showed me that, its just not the time to be in a relationship and all. thanks for ignoring me. seriously. hah..why im writing this when shes not reading my blog. nah..its just what in my head, i write.

thats all. Assalamu'alaikum.

Mimi

it has been two days since i saw mimi. the last time i saw her, she followed me halfway to the market. wonder where she could have gone to :/

Mimi is my neighbourhood cat anyway. always follow me to the doorstep when i reach home. the she would "meow" for food. it gives me a sense of comfort whenever i feed her. haish..hope she return pretty soon. amin..

so..two more weeks and school reopens. till then, im gonna make use of this remaining holiday. enjoy! chey..and of course go for classes and all insyaAllah. hey, i feel kinda great this pass few days..alhamdulillah.

dont know what else to write..maybe cos im sleepy. cant wait for this wed's training :)

assalamua'ailakum.

September ends

We can never safely say, things will change tomorrow. sometimes, change does not happen. sometimes it happens. for the good or for the worst. we always hope for the good, but Allah always has a better plan for us.  I truly believe that if my plan goes smooth, its all because of Allah's willing. if my plan fails, Allah has planned something greater, maybe not now, but later.

maybe my statement above may seem, yea, normal for  people to say. but if we were to really understand and appreciate it, we would'nt be so caught up with life. all those sadness and misery. those guilt and unhappiness. have you ever wondered why some people can smile even at their worst. i believe, they see the good thing in life. for, we should never stop smiling while we still can. 

maybe we have'nt seen it yet. maybe we have. those who were smiling with us and were among us eating and chatting. now, no more. they have left us. maybe we were remorseful or saddened by their absence. but after a while, we tend too forget. we tend to take life for granted and live as if we are gonna live forever. for syaitan is our true enemy. Never forget to ask Allah for forgiveness everyday. we can never run from doing sins. Allah maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang. never fall for the trap of syaitan which whispers to our heart, to keep on doing sins till we grow old then we are gonna taubat and syaitan make us believe that we are going to live till that  day to ask Allah for forgiveness. we can never be assure that we are gonna be alive tomorrow. we can never know if we are gonna live till the day we are going to ask Allah for forgiveness.

this is a reminder specially to myself and also to all of us..May Allah bless us with His forgiveness. amin..

Assalamu'alaikum.