7 October 2011. I will always remember the day we met up and talk things out. Just the two of us, quite a distance apart with that big table in spectrum with crowd of students studying there. My objective, to stop your silent treatment towards me and to forget everything and be like normal friends who talk to each other. You told me to move on and saying you dont like me liking you. You also told me there were other guys whom you treated the same as you treated me. At the end of that meet up, i promised to move on and to stop liking you and we wouldnt be strangers anymore.
It was a promise that was never meant to be fufilled. I tried so hard to not like you but feelings just cant be forced. The following days, i tried to be as normal as normal friends would behave around you. But, i just cant. I would get all excited when you replied to my texts, when we walked together to silat room and when you respond to my conversation. With that i fall deeper. It was hard enough to hide my feelings for you. Eventually, you realised that i didnt kept my promise and you began your silent treatment again. But this time, it wasnt as cruel. Just that, you treat normally but not like normal friends. Eventually, i began to have control over my feelings and Allah swt gave new responsibilities and challenges that helps me along the way to make me forget about relationships.
But, deep inside me, you have always been the person whom i wish i could marry. Your presence have been a blessing and you are my motivation to become good person and gain more knowledge of islam. I am thankful for having to meet someone like you. My life journey in SP, you were there. You were there during our stressful assignments, you were there during our preparation for exams, you were there during all the camps i attended, kembara, SSP camp, silat training camp and foc from yr 1 to yr 3. You were there during our crazy fyp period, you were there when i ran away from the committee meeting, you were there when i cried in silat room. You have always been there.
If Allah permits it, I pray that you would be the person whom will guide me to be a better Muslim. Like you said, patience is key. If you are destined to be my wife, may Allah swt ease our relationship and keep us away from fitnah and whispers of syaitan. Till then, lets study hard and make your mum and my parents proud first. May Allah forgive your sins, give you health and grant you happiness in dunia and hereafter. Amin :)
