birthday boy

Hello!

okay, actually the pictures are supposed to be from the bottom to up. means the last picture should be on top and the top picture here with this guy here should be last. so yea..up to you la haha.

so, its Hanis's 18th birthday! i had no idea what to get for him since i'm short of money. since i have lots of free time and enjoy cooking, why not bake for him something! so i decided to bake a chocolate cake.

i had no idea how to start. so i decided to ask a friend for recipe. so she showed me this link to a webpage showing all the wonderful recipes. sounds easy to make and the ingredients are also quite okay..so i go ahead with it. i bought the ingredients in the afternoon and went for silat training. after training i started with the baking. okay now, read from the bottom!

8) hope you like the cake Hanis. i made it with tender loving care noe...hahah

well, you're 18 now. legal to buy cigarettes but i would'nt want to see you buy one anyway :)

could not have say more how much i care for you, but insyaAllah, our friendship last till my very last breathe, happy 18th birthday buddy :)

7) wooo..my very first chocolate cake for a special someone on his next day of birthday!
6) taadaa! haha..heres the baked cake! As you can see there are many holes because i checked on it for a few times. luckily it comes out nice chocolate colour and not black!

5) heres the topping part. the thing that makes this cake nice! add in 1 tin of sweetened milk ( can add less if you scared tooo sweeet). add about 125 g of oil, any cooking oil, 1 tspn of vanilla essence, about 70g of cocoa powder and a lil bit of salt. put it into simmer under slow heat. slowly swirl the mix. dont let it for too long. if you hold your hand over the mix and its hot then its okay ordy can take out. dont wait until it boils, like me. luckily i mange to pour it out before the whole mix becomes chaotar!
4) here's the result! add in about 200g of chilled water slowly. gently mix them. put in a tray which has been oiled. bake for about 60 mins at 170 dgree celsius. can check if already baked by poking a stick into the cake. if you pull the stick from the cake and there's some dough on the stick means its not cook yet. but if the stick comes out clean means it ready to be taken out of the oven.

3) this is the flour part. mix together flour (230g), cocoa powder (64g) salt (1/2 tspn) bicarbonate soda (1 tspn) and baking powder (1 &1/2 tspn). after that, add in in this mixture of flour in the butter and sugar just now. put it slowly and slowly mix it together with a spatula.
2) so here it starts. put the butter(170g) in and next the castor sugar(400g) then let the butter soften first. mix it well with a mixer preferably. after the butter and sugar is evenly mixed, add in the eggs, one by one. only 3 eggs is used. after that, add in the nescafe ( 1 tspn) chocolate paste (1 tspn), vanilla essence ( 1 tspn) and also 1 tspn of hot water.

1) so first, this is all the ingredients. eggs, a packet of cocoa powder, castor sugar, flour, baking powder, bicarbonate of soda, chocolate paste, vanilla essence, sweetened milk and Nescafe. woo..you can subsitute nescafe with milo.

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its already 23rd Dec 2010, time really flies this year. its gonna be 2011 soon. but that doesnt make a difference right? im still me, you are still my friend, and im still alive and kicking!

well..i still remembered how i started 2010. were at marina square with hanis waiting for the fireworks. stumbled upon shaifful and the gang. Kak Ina ( balithai's manager) called me and were crying on the phone because of her friend. hanis and me did not know what to do but just listen to her talking..haha. yeaa..our first phrase for 2010 was " La haula wala quwatta Illah billah."

i guess there is blessings to that phrase. for this year, i really had many wonderful memories in bringing me closer to Him. met many new friends whom is not the usual..you know..those teenagers whom wear jubahs to school and masjid. not saying that wearing jubah means you are good..but its their courage to show people the beauty of Islam. this year also i started on Quran..one of the things that i really am grateful for. insyaAllah in 2011..things would be as wonderful as 2010. for all i know..2010 wouldnt be 2010 if it werent for my family and beloved friends, Hanis, Faizul, Rafie, Ya'qub. though i may not be a good companion, but rest assured, you guys really means a lot in my life :)

till then, im sick of ducks and take care!

Training camp

An awesome camp i would say. though our limits were tested, i really benefited from the 4 days 3 night silat camp in sp. now im back home, all the aches and bruises reminds me of the"fun" i had during the camp.

So yea..it was great to see almost all the year ones attended the camp. bonds were strengthened, shared knowledge and just appreciate each other's presence. so day 1 was okay. we started off with learning new moves by coach wandi. he thought the 5 techniques which can be used during a fight. so i grabbed a patner. we applied the 5 techniques with a padding. unfortunately, on the first day of camp, i had a muscle pull on my right groin. i was not able to lift my right leg up. limping throughout the camp. i took that as a challenge and just continued my kicks with my left leg. so it was day 1 and 1st injury.

day 2. i would say day 2 is torturous day throughout the camp. we assembled at 6am in the mussolah. by 630, everyone were suppossed to gather at the carpark. it was time for PT. morning physical training. man..we were still tired from the first day training. some of us were late to assemble, mostly the guys. so we got a punishment. yea..PT started with a jog around SP. you know..sp is big. i think we jogged more than 3 km that morning. plus the few more rounds in the stadium. after that we had a light breakfast. that it was back to training. this time, lead by coach himself. it was this training that really took almost everything out of me. physical training, doing push up and all that. still having the aches. after that, we had our lunch, after lunch it was back to training. we recap all the moves that we have learned throughout our training since we entered sp silat. after a short break, we headed for the sports hall where we learnt a new move, called guntingan.the awesomest move i've ever seen. then at night, we learned the rules and regulation in silat competition. after it was lights off. second night was totally diff from the first night. this time, all slept soundly.

3rd day. i would say it was quite relax. though we still had morning PT. but after that, we had breakfast and it was free and easy till lunch. after lunch we started with training session. luckily it did not involve any sweat. we learnt how wear a benkung/sabuk. it is the white sash around a pesilat's waist. there will be a " ceremony" during the last day of camp were all the yr one who attended the camp will receive the sash presented by the coach. we have to wear it front of the coach himself.one rule to take note, the sash cant touch the ground, and it is really long. so we have to be careful when wrapping it around our waist. after this session, we resumed with normal training. it was time to refine our kicks and punches as for preparation for the next day's "mini IVP" where the randomly selected seniors will face off with the juniors. that's the highlight for day 3 i guess.

Last day. it was an exciting and nerve wrecking day as well. today is the day we will prove to the coach and other pesilat what we can do. to cut story short, we headed to the sports hall at 12. the mats were set, the sash were neatly wrapped around my waist. it was time for the sparring session. my opponent was SP silat's president, Mus. man..it was an honour to have a spar with him. the nervousness upon reaching my turn, only God knows. so my friend help me to put on the vest. so i stepped into the ring. i didnt know how to do the steps to enter the middle ring. so i just make straight walk into the ring while my opponent was almost like dancing into the middle ring.

"Mulai!" shouted the wasir. and so starts the match. i quickly aimed for a punch. and then a kick. i knew he played easy on me. so i decided to do a sapuan. he easily dodge it. the he gave a direct kick into my stomach. senak dok..but i just kept my cool. he gave me a sapuan. guess what..i not only dodge it..i jumped over him! haha. i heard some of them saying " mcm spiderman sia!" hahah! of course there was cheering and all. then he sapu me again and again i jump over him! i myself couldnt believe i did that. after that, i gave him a flying tojang. fusshh..it hit his chest. i felt so great after that. haha. i could'nt really remember the whole match. what i know is that, during the second round, i was exhausted. "Ti!" and the match stopped.

to my surprise, there was another match arranged for me. i was up against....the coach himself! omg..i tried to back out. but its worth trying. with my injured groin, i just push myself to face the coach. after many match pass..it time for the last match. the last match was between me and coach wandi. my friends were telling me, just act as if he is like others. that helps. i entered the ring once again. this time, more confident. i again started with a punch. it was hit and run. punch and run away. at one moment he gave me a kick. i tried to catch but it was too fast. the seniors told me forget about catching his leg. i was not taking that. on his next kick, i manage to grab hold of his leg, but did'nt get to make him fall down. everyone was cheering loudly. so i waoted for his next kick like a hungry eagle. "snapped!" i caught his leg again. this time i tried so hard to kick of his supporting leg. "bam!" he fell. everyone cheered for that fall. i was so happy at that moment. i didnt know what to do. i just smiled and bow at he spectators to show i really appreciate their support. there was a boost in my morale. i made him fall down once again after that :') at one moment, i saw him sitting on the ring cause i pull his leg just after the wasir say stopped.

I guess this is the story of my memorable training camp. truly, i cherish every moment of it. in time to come, im gonna train hard to become a great pesilat..insyaAllah :D

Faiz

today i met my primary school bestest buddy. MasyaAllah..listening to his voice just now, its still the same as it is 5 years ago when we were in primary six. i was his his friend since primary 1 though. So small..so fragile. haizz..memories memories memories. wanted to walk with him just now..but yeaa its ok. insyaAllah we'll meet again, Faiz.

So, MST is over, for now. there's still exams somewhere in march or april. Holiday is three week, filled with school stuffs. argh..how i wish there's a 2 month holiday or something. tapi takpe la, salmah's sister told me something important during the hijrah walk. she said, " when you think that things are getting difficult for you and you think you cant cope the stress, just think about the reason why you are there at the first place." Well..what she said is soo true. what i am doing in sp studying nutrtion health and wellness? because i wanna be somebody who's out there to promote healthy lifestyle, insyaAllah. i want to inspire people, and get inspired by people :)

hah..okay la. whatever it is,i still think that age doesnt really matter in relationships..hehe. good day people! :D

Hamlas

hello! mst is gonna over by tmr at 5pm! yay~

okay, hamlas is a name actually. someone new, i met in a mosque. the way i see it, the person has smiles all over. i mean, sweet, not arrogant and has this bubbly personality. i likee. hahah. you know, ive been thinking about it and i think that age doesnt really matter. right? hehe. who cares, i love you you love me i kentut u lari.

k la, back to studying. chalo bete bebeh :)

almost there

Its nearing to holidays. pheww..just finished the projects today. its like taking off a heavy burden from your shoulder. so yea..had 2 presentations today, and i guess it went quite well, alhamdulillah. well, the stress is not over yet. next week is mst week. mst means mid semester test. ahh..gonna chiong for it man!

ah, finally get to watch harry potter! thanks faizul! hahah. yea..watched harry potter at jp today with hanis and faizul. hermione is sooo beautiful. wish she was my girlpren. and to me, harry potter is becoming more and more exciting. cant wait for part 2.

hmm..i feel like im getting older, fast. starting to see myself like an adult.

seriously, my parents have grown me up to be someone independent. since i was pri 2, my mum trutesd me to go back home my self. and my school was at cck while i live at jurong. im starting to see all this. im gonna be all by myself one day. cant rely on my parents too much. i dunno why, but this pass few days, i feel like somebody old. somebody not me. so stressed up. i hardly laugh this week. actually got laugh laugh la..but not as much as usual. i dont want to be old. being old just makes you feel soo..stressed up. i wanna be a child, holding on to my parents, always have attention, get things easy. haiz..wild dreams. reality is, i am getting older day by day.

School

im officially, stressed. Theres so much things to be done within this month. Doa, a weapon during this tough period. nevertheless..i should spend time wisely now. good day friends :)

Aidiladha

Started the day by making my way to the mosque. the morning calmness, was so peaceful and makes me want to continue sleep again. haha. Takbir till 8am and performed solat aidiladha at Al khair. after that i went straight home and ate my mum's rendang. its a fulllerrrmak! sedap hingga menjilat kaki.

Then, my mum asked, "kambing mane? tk bwk balek?" haha. i just said i did'nt even took a glance of the goats. then she asked me to follow my uncle to collect the distributed goat meat. haiya..i was about to fall asleep with my full stomach. so i followed my uncle to mosque.

At the mosque..there was along queue, all want to collect the meat. in my mind i said, the goat is not even sacrificed yet and there's ardy a long queue..haha, kiasu people. i followed my uncle to the back of the mosque to see the goats. i was mesmerised by the scene. all the imams and ustaz together with the volunteers was there getting ready to sacrifice the goats.

i stood behind one of the gates and watched as the goats were sacrificed. It was really a gruesome scene for first timer like me. but then, i wanted to be part of them, to be there to help out with the ibadah korban. so i approached one of the staff at the gate whether i can enter and help. he said its only for volunteers. felt disappointed. Then, my uncle came by. My uncle used to be the person who sacrificed the goats..so he was well-known there. then he recommend the uncle to take me as a volunteer! haha..i was so happy when i stepped into the slaughtering ground. i was assigned to hold the goat when is it about to be sacrificed.

It could'nt get much better when i was assigned to one of my favourite imam of al khair. He was so cheerful and gave me a lot of tips and facts about sacrificing the goats. then, comes the goat on my table. i quickly grab hold of its feet. then i laid my arms on the body. the sheep was shivering. yelling some things which sounded like "help help."

So, firstly, the person who paid for the goat, was called into the slaughtering ground. and were asked whether it is a korban or aqiqah. then a tag was placed on the goat's right leg. then, the person is asked whether he want to korban the goat himself or allow the imam to do so. so yea..the imam was given the permission to slaughter the goat on behalf of the person's name. so here it starts. Hj Sunni, felt for the windpipe or something on the goat's neck. then he held it. before piercing through the neck, he set his niat first. then he recite, "Bismillahi Allahu Akbar!"

the people holding the goat recited the takbir together. The blood from the neck would spurt out like a fountain. once, the blood spurted on the side of my face. the blood is quite warm... during this period, some goat were forcing away like mad and we have to use all our strength to hold the goat. some died peacefully, with little movement from them. So yea..everything went smoothly. Hope you had a better Aidiladha than me..take care!

here are some pictures

A Broken Arm

I was at first clueless of what's happening. He was shouting lying down on the mat. then i noticed his arm was..broken! Gosh..never thought this kind of incident could happen. and it happened right in front of my eyes.

It was silat training and coach taught us how to do Sapuan. after that, he decided to hold a sparring session. it was my first time. Everyone had a partner except for me. i was kind of disappointed. then i heard some of them saying i would be sparring with the coach himself! haha. but then, it did'nt happen. it was going to be my turn, but because of the eerie incident, the sparring was stopped. Hopefully he'll recover soon. Everything happens for a reason..somehow, it tells me that i am not ready yet, Allah knows best. InsyaAllah next time coach!

Nah, we're not gay. just close friends whom i love so very the much. haha. Now i know how rafie feels. each time i meet them, i feel like hugging them. but its just hard to do. Rafie, next time i meet you, we're gonna hug like the banglas do. heheh. The banglas for some reason, shows care and love for each other. each time they meet, i would see them hug for a few secs, then kiss on the cheeks. the good banglas i mean..those i see in the mosque. so yea..not to say friends, i forgot the last time i hug my mum and dad. i want to..but it just doesnt happen. when i leave the house, its just a "bye mak". hopefully things will change in future. it'll be "sayang mak :)"

Dari mane?

Last Friday was, awesome. more than awesome actually.

Mmm..so far i've just started on my chem report. there's still lost more to be done before december arrives. it used to be that December were our long awaited holiday. but now its the not so awaited mid test.

okay. It feels like im not myself again. suddenly i feel so out of place. you know, the feeling of being pushed aside and being left alone in the dark. hah. i dunno why this thing happens. when this feeling comes, i spend most of my time lying down, see the sky moves elegantly. haha..some emo shit huh. yeaa..dont worry about me, the feeling will go away once i see my beloved friends :)

till then, take care peeps :D

its another round of reports and assignments. i just have to start early to avoid last minute work. worse, dateline is shorter this sem. O M A!!

Itself

Lets just say whatever happens in your life, its meant for you. Because everyone is special in their own ways. Regardless matreps, minah, or the nerd guy in your class. Allah is Great, He does whatever He wants.

Dont think that the person is matrep, you are much better than him. maybe the sins that you've done is much more worse than the sins that the matreps have done. i know its naive to say this but we just have to love everyone and see ourself as the most pitiful, sinnest person in the world. Honestly, when i see bunch of matreps, i dont dare look at them in their eyes. the feeling of "fear" suddenly overpowers me that i try to avoid them. Is this right? its just that, we see them as 'higher' than us, because they dare to hurt someone without using their brains but just follow their anger.

Maybe its just that their tattoos and piercing made them look more fierce. whatever la..one day i wish these matreps become an ustaz or something so that they can help change live with their own experience and one fine day, matreps will not exist anymore..aminnn.

Coincidence?

I believe theres's no such thing as coincidence. Everything that happened, was meant to happen. Like yesterday, I was quite feeling down coming back from school after silat training at around 830pm, eating my cookie, suddenly someone called me from behind. I turned and there's no other person that i wanted to see other than him..alhamdullilah God let us meet, even at time we least excpected :)

So yeaa..cant wait for this friday!!! because..after so long, finally get to overnight at the beach! woohoo! with Hanis Yaqub and Faizul. just chill at the beach..enjoy the view and be amazed by the morning sunrise..total awesomeness! Hopefully the weather wouldn't disappoint us..Till then, Enjoy the looong weekends!

Isnin

Seems like blogging is the only place i turn to when i have nobody to share my feelings with. how sad.

Today quite slack in school,our chem lecturer went on conference for one week and left us with online assignment due this week. So we had about 4 hours break. did some project works..after school decided to karaoke at school. but, suddenly i had absolutely no mood for karaoke. which is very rare. so i did'nt. when i really did'nt know what to do (bcos gg home would only lead me to sleeping), my mum suddenly called. She wanted to visit Iqbal! haha..so i accompanied my mum. were surprised to see my aunts were also there. yeaa..kissed on the cheeks and said goodbye after that.

Went to JP to eat at banquet. i ordered ayam penyet, which the sambal is superb. got my ears burning. love it :) soo..after that went home. and finally, thnx a lot for the text message in the morning, it really made my day, a pleasant surprise :)yeaa..thats how my monday went.

I just need someone, before i become somebody that's a nobody.

Quality time

When you're alone, doing nothing, lots of unthinkable things come to your mind. Well, it is, for me.

Today was one silent, peaceful sunday. My father went fishing, my mum went to Johor, and my bro busy with his work. me, i stayed at home and spend my time watching TV and read up some books i bought last time.

about the unthinkable things. its not things like walking around the house naked or shout at the top of your lungs in the toilet. but its the things like, what happens if my closest friends one day leave me. what if my parents were not around anymore. these things can bring tears. the only thing i can do is, to pray, pray and pray that everyone around me is blessed and live a happy life here and after.

short post i guess..till next post, take care people :)

warning!

Once again, i feel like writing about, relationships.

Im only 17, but it has come to me that i really need someone, to share the fascinating stories that i had during the day or even to share a smile with someone who really appreciates it. Psychology, it is proven that at this age, if intimacy is not achieved, there will be feeling of rejection, and we tend to feel ostracized. well..i dont really feel rejected or whatsoever, i just feel, empty.

*long sigh*

Just glad that im happy, though not so happy. still, Alhamdullilah :)

track and feel

Finally today i went for track and field in sp. i wanted to join since last sem but did'nt get the chance to. so yeaa..track mates were friendly, some gave me a welcoming look..some look at me as if i am a walking doublecheeburger. get it? hahah..i mean they give me a weird look ah.

okay..after long disappearance from the track, it feels soo good to put back those shoes where it belongs. the moment i start the first sprint, i knew i still had the "skills." but now, im having backaches, leg aches everywhere la aches.

i have three pimples on my face. my friend ask me, why the sudden pimple bloom. then i said, one pimple stands for a girl that is in my mind. haha. and so she said, lets see which pimple burst first, tht will be the girl i'll be with. sooo..i showed to the pimple beside my eye and said, this is Liyana, then above my lips, i said jerina, then at my cheeks and i said khalisah. guess which one burst instantly. serious..i point at the cheek and it goes "pop!" hahaha!

hehe. cheeky pimple. i guess thats all for this post..till next time okay! take care peeps :)

Muhammad Nur Iqbal

Today is a very blessed day for my family. Firstly because its my father's birthday. secondly, because there is a new member in the family. welcome to the club Iqbal!

yeaa..my newly wed bro just got his first son. Alhamdullilah..everything went smoothly. cant wait to get my hands laid on him. my father was one happy chicken when news came that the child was born. well..there's gonna be two birthdays on the 24 of oct from next yr onwards. my father was like.."kau tgk je, budak tu da besar nnt pendiam, rajin kerje, hensem mcm atok die" haha! i gave him this face -_-. cheyy..no la..i just hope the child grows up to be someone kind hearted, a filial son and respect the elderly. amin.

finally today get to meet hanis faizul and yaqub. even better, saw khalisah! haha. okay..sorry if we stalk you like some desprados yea? hopefully, one day, get to talk to you :)

okaayy..tmr sch at 8. first lesson is Fitness and Wellness throughout lifespan. the days just gets better. alhamdullilah. till next post! take care bebeh :)

ps:Rafie, all the best for o levels!

Finally, i finished Iqra' 6. a moment i'll never forget, the last few sentence in Iqra' 6, an emotional one just now..haha. so next ngaji i'll start with Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah.. :)

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maybe next time..love ya!

Self Discovery

Today, i spent the whole day with this someone whom i really wish to know further. We went to geylang today to shop. cheyy..no la, i went alone. I want to make the post end like this.."and that someone was me" tapi tak menjadi. hahah. so yeaa..today i decided to go shopping at geylang. I bought myself a white baju kurung, a white songkok, and 2 minyak atar! all this for the friday night class.

Sometimes, its good to spend quality time alone. though a i really wanted to go with a buddy, but its alright. The journey to geylang was quite short bcos i was engrossed with the book im reading. its a book about our past 'Ulama. A great book i borrowed from the library. so yea..actually lots of things are in mind right now.

sometimes..i think im born to be lonely. seriously..i never really had lots of friends when i was a kid. i used to play bicycle alone roaming around bukit panjang.i remembered crashing onto a bust stop pillar and laughed at myself for being so clumsy. my best friend when i was a kid was a bicycle. nah..things change right? im still finding who i really him. for all i know, when im alone, Allah will always be there. amin.

Shucks. school starts tomorrow. another round of stress all over again. Its okay, im gonna hold my head up and stand on the frontline with my spears and conquer this semester! :)

syukur

"semua antara nak dengan tak nak"

The quote above seems simple, but it really means a lot. Its a quote from Ya'qub, and it stayed on with me since then. He said this when were out lepaking by the esplanade with Hanis. It was before school reopens. Yaqub went to republic poly, Faizul went to ngee Ann poly, i went to Sp, Hanis went to his culinary school. all went to different directions. Alhamdullilah, we are still close friends right now. things didnt change like we thought it would change. Only God knows how glad i am. and Rafie, stay strong during this hard times, its gonna be over soon :)

"ape2 jdi walaupun kite pgi seperate skolah, hrap kite masih rapat mcm skrng" -Hanis, 11 Jan 2010, 22:19

penghuni rumah orang cacat otak.

trip to Institute of Mental Health (IMH) was both memorable and an eye opener. really..my eyes open quite big that day..haha. let me just share what happen on that day.

the place was at buangkok, met at 230. it was organised by sp ang ngee ann poly. haha..ok straight to the impt point. we reached IMH and was warmly welcomed by the staff there. we we briefed on what to do and what not to do with the patients. i remembered the guy telling us, if the patients asked us for money, just say we left it at home.

okay..so we were brought to the patients ward. words cant express how i felt upon seeing their faces stuck on the glass door, like as if the ward was a volcano and the patients are the lava that is gonna blow out of the volcano at any moment. we sanitised our hands and entered the room. man..the patients straight away offered us a handshake. some were shouting at the top of their lungs.."hello!" most of them were old..but their expression and happiness upon seeing us made them look as though they were toddlers who is excited upon seeing a new toy.

we shook hands with most of the patient...then we started with our activity. first was, we played "passing the balloon game" whoever holds the balloon when the music stops, have to come to the center and do a forfeit. hahah..and the guy before me wanted to sabo me. wth..i just snatch the balloon away from him..to think about im quite mean seh. haha..he was a patient there by the way :)

then we move to the next activity. we gathered around a table and taught them how to make rabbits out of a hankerchief! some of them..they had trembling hands..i dunno whats the medical term..but its a kind of abnormality. they had soo fun much doing these stuff. some were laughing all the way. i made one rabbit and gave to the uncle im closest with me on that day. he sang "kamelia" by ramli sarip..hahah..soo hilarious!

we sang..sat down, watch mr bean the movie. had small talks. mann..its an experience i will never forget. i take this opportunity, to share with you what i really felt on that day. to those who has a perception that IMH is only a place for crazy people..think again. its more that a mental institute. its a place where these people whom were not given care and love by their family members who cant afford to tahan their behaviour and they were placed there, some till their last breathe. some were even sent there since the 60s. imagine their emptiness..even a stranger visiting them..could bring soo much joy and happiness. how heartless can mankind be. and we say we are lonely when we dont have bf or gf....may Allah place all these patients in the glorious Jannah after so much pain and suffering in dunia..amin.

Results are out!!

Actually the result came out on monday. i got GPA of 3.175. just 0.015 to get 3.2..what the helll.

hah..but okay laa..alhamdullilah!

was quite shock with the grades i got. so here's the result!

Mathematics: D

Chemistry: C+

Food Science:B+

Health and Wellness: B+

Nutrition: A

Psychology:A

Biology: A

wooo..not bragging or what laa ehh..just that even my parents dunno my result. soo..might as well i share it with my friends. all the hardwork quite paid off. Next sem, please be nice :)

I cant write as beautiful, but i just want to let out whatever that is in my mind. Today i saw aqa at mrt. okayy..haha just something random. today karaoke session was not as awesome cos we ended earlier. nevertheless, had a rocking time with my rocking peeps. Yaqub had the most powerful voice, Hanis has the sweetest voice, Faizul, i just love his chipmunk voice..hehe.

im still single. kinda empty, but as time goes, im getting used to it. yea..i do have somebody in mind, but i just dun think its the right time. i had small talks with chef today ( the chef working at siam kitchen). she said, "go find your darling, you are ready i know" haha! she talk as though she had known me for years. i dunno wad she means..but yeaa. guys my age would probably had a few relationshops in their life. i had one, but it did'nt worked out well. sorry if she's reading this..i should'nt have ask for a relationship if i knew i was'nt ready. that was one lesson learnt. since then, i was afraid of relationships.

tak habes2 psl mataer je ehh. hmm..right now, i just want to focus on what i want to achieve in life. (ehem2) i've volunteered myself to provide my service in IMH this coming saturday. they said we'll be playing games with the patients there. kinda reluctant..but this chance comes by not often. my english teruk laa..sorry2. soo..i just wanna feel how is it like to be around someone different. hopefully it'll be a fruitful day for me.

today's post is quite long huh. i still want to write. working and going out with friends lately, i've been missing quality time with my mum. she's busy with her food stall, i never get a chance to see her sometimes. me going back late everyday. its just that, i miss her very the much. A lot more in my mind..but i think i should stop here. Good luck for those taking their exams! sawadikappp :D

today i kicked a chair onto my brother. cool right....haha. he is one irritating ass. anyhow kick my stuff around. so i just kick anything near me onto him. serve him right. its just that, he has no respect or whatsoever for me. the other time i remembered him kicking my bag aside when he wanted to walk. its like what the hell! today i just bought a new shoe, and i put one side beside the door. he wanted to walk there, and there was a huge way beside it. noo..he dont want to..he just kick aside my shoe. i was okay with that at first..lava was still not at its peak.

then i went inside my room. then i heard him kick my shoe further away from the door like as if my shoe was a pile of garbage. that is how the lava blew up and a wooden chair flew onto his leg.

sometimes, i wonder what would happen if i were to come out earlier than my brother. would i treat him the same way he treat me? i just wish my brother were somebody else sometimes. we are totally two diff people. sometimes i hate him, sometimes i just wish he was not my brother. thats how bad i hate him. yea..hopefully things will change in future.

2 days feel like 2 weeks. seriously..im having a bad migraine this pass few days. feels like im in water sometimes, floating around. have been taking panadol, it works but only temporarily. another thing that makes time so longg..is having no friends to talk to. Hanis is busy with work..haizz.

welcome!

my circadian cycle is set to sleep at 1200am. i tried to sleep just now but my eyes were wide awake. sooo..what did i did today? I went to school for awhile to collect my monehhh! awesome! gonna get a new specs, new shoes and maybe buy some books :)

Hopefully tmr will be a great day out with Hanis, faizul and yaqub! Finally get to go out together again.

and, yeah..things are going pretty well for me. but, nothing last. the money is gonna be used up soon. tmr will end. then comes another day, another day, another day, until there is no more day. hah..i dunno what i blabbering about oso...i guess thats all i want to say. actually a lot more la but i think too personal and too deep to write, scared you all muntah after reading. okay then..have a nice day :)

"No one is ever tired of loving, but we all do get tired of the cheating, the lying, the waiting, the heartbreaks. And sooner or later, we find ourselves slowly, falling out of love."

do i have a chance?

Okay, its time for a break, have a kit kat :)

seriously, just now exam was not as expected, some of my classmate even said it was joke. though paper was easy, i forgot to be grateful, till Hanis reminded me. man..i always asked for an easy paper, and when i got it, i totally forgot to thank Him. InsyaAllah it wont happen again.

Today i met Hanis, after his interview at Shangri-La Hotel.

trust me, he's gonna be as successful as Chef Wan one day, or even better than Chef Wan.

As usual we wondered around town aimlessly. Listening to his wonderful preaching, im just glad that he's still by my side :)

Mmmmm...not in the mood to write soo much things. maybe next time, take care :)

no smoking

Exams are gonna be OVER soon. yes Faizul, urs finish already..hahah. mm..im starting to draw up plans for the coming semester break. to work? or to spend more time with friends? or sign for classes outside?Im thinking of doin all that at once during the 4 week holiday. mayb just work 3 times a week, the remaining days can use for other stuffs. so siam kitchen! here i come~

The hari raya mood suddenly fading off already. friends hari raya outing? dont feel like goin too. im okay if the group is about 7 to 10 people, but if its like over fifteen people in one go? the house wont collapse, but the house will be in tunggang langgang after everyone leaves. maybe i'll join my class for hari raya outing. Silat, Dikir and MLS geng, happy jln raye without me :)

next in my mind, girls. im too weak for a relationship, i admit it. i dun understand how this thing works or how the hell people get into long relationships. I think im gonna stand aside, just wait for a girl to call me up and say, "hey, ure a great guy, can you be mine forever?". yea..by that time, i would have my beard growing till my toes. Even so, why not i say to that girl " hey ure a great girl, but am i great enough for you?" i dunno what i talking oso..so yea, lets just leave it hanging here.

To whoever who is concerned, i wanna say that i hate cigarette smell (the smoke) to the bottom of my jantung. so if you smoke, please stay the bloody hell away from me, i hate that smell.

sorry for the harsh words, but this is what i truly feel. till then, see you guys in next post, sayur nara ^^

Syawal

Just wanna share what happen during my first day of raya.

First of all, regret to say that i missed solat adilfitri :(

All because of my hp which did not wake me up. my mum told me she woke me up, and i was awake, and smiling to her then i went back to sleep. but i didn't recall that happening. hahah.

feeling guilty, i went friday prayers earlier.

So yea. today marks a new beginning for my family. today was the first time my mum and dad sat on the chair while their children kneeled to beg for forgiveness. actually none of my brothers had the courage to do that. then i decided to speak and just blurted out " k, mak ngan baba duduk atas kerusi, abg wan ko mintak maaf kat mak dulu, ko paling tua." everyone was quite, like as if i said nothing. then my mum break the silence. she told my eldest brother to say sorry to his dad first.

Alhamdullilah, my tears were not for nothing :)

My beloved nephews. they came to my house today. words cant describe how i felt upon seeing thier faces.i miss them sooooo much. i hug each and everyone of them. how they grew so fast. the youngest was closest to me today, his name, syafi. He would'nt let go of my hand whenever we are in people's house. he slept so soundly on my lap during long trips on the lorry. even though my sperm count were decreasing and my legs were fully numb, i didn't move an inch just to make sure he sleeps peacefully..i love him to the bottom of my heart. then it was time to send him back to his mother. it was like losing someone so precious to you. even though he is only about 3 yrs old, i've shared many memories with him. i saw tears at his eyes when i left him. he may be young, but he understands that i really do not want to part with him again :'(

Hopefully i get to see him again in time to come, soon.

apart from duit raya and mouth watering foods, Aidilfitri this year is another special moment for me. Alhamdulillah:)

takbir

Time waits for no man. Ramadhan have left us, and here comes Syawal. and its time to boogie woogie! hahaha. Its hari Raya people! share the looveee..all the great food, meet old friends, the joy of visiting somebody's house, long trips, pretty ladies wearing kebaya and kurung, its just awesome^^

Okay, serious now.

Ramadhan 2010 has brought many wonderful things to my life.

All that i've been through the past 30 days, have made me a better person, InsyaAllah.

but still, there's still lots and lots of things i have yet to discover.

The coming days, will i be the same, or better, or worse. Only God knows.

You, i hope you had a great Ramadhan.

Ramadhan, hopefully next year we'll meet again.

and last but not least,

Selamat Hari Raya, salam maaf dan kasih, semoga happy2 selalu ye :)

Night Of Power

Today i felt so peaceful, like everything seems to be fine and the world seems to slow down. Yesterday night, was one of the memorable nights i had. i was invited by my friend to attend a Qiyamulail at Muhajirin. I was hesistant at first, but i decided to put Him first this time.

The event started with us giving out free dates to public at chua chu kang mrt station. People were mostly reluctant to take the mysterious blue plastic bag we were giving out. some even ignored us. i dont understand these people. but yea the makciks were more than glad to receive the free dates.

Then there was a shuttle bus ready to take us to Muhajirin mosque, located at braddell. it was a long bus ride, the only thing that is in mind was the coming math and chemistry exam.

We reached the mosque, and i was overwhelmed by the number of people who attended this event. then it was time for break fast. we had briyani!

after terawih, we slack aroound the mosque area. i get to meet lots of new friends. we talk and talk and talk till the organiser tells us that it was time for us to go to the auditorium for the next activity. it was time for muhasabah diri.

This is one of the highlight of the night. Specially invited Ustaz came and gave us a warm welcome with the heartwarming zikir. didicazli were event there to recite the zikir.

Then it was time for the real thing.

3 of the ustaz sat by the side. everyone kept quiet. one of them rise and stands at the center of the stage. He began with reminding us the promise we had with Allah s.w.t. the promise we made before we sent down to our mother's womb by the angels. the promise that even the mountains and the sky were afraid to fufill. the promise to be a good muslim, in this world full of obstacles that He sent down to test the iman of Muslimin.

the atmosphere became solemn, as everyone begins to have deep thoughts about what is being said. as the ustaz continued, tears came running down everyone's cheek.

i was at first not having deep thoughts.. but it hit me when the ustaz told us to imagine our beloved parents' figure. then he start to remind us the sacrifice that our parents have gone through. memories of my father sending me to school early in the morning when i was in pri sch came flowing to my mind. then i remembered how my mum used to work day and night to support the family. i broke down to tears. the tears has its reasons. i was afraid that my parents would leave me one day. the thought was unbearable. im just not ready for their absence.

i left the auditorium as a changed person, InsyaAllah. it was time for us to sleep, to gain energy for the later qiamulail. i slept in the mosque by the doors. it was so peaceful. the night were still, everyone was sleepy. after about 2 hours of nap, i was awaken by the thunder. it was raining heavily. in my heart, i said, InsyaAllah, tonight is the night we are are all hoping for, cos i remembered the ustaz told us ealier that one of the signs of Lailatul Qadar is that there would be heavy rains.

It was like as if the world was slowing down. everything seems so calm. i was at peace after the qiamulail. i forgot about the coming exams. the only that is in my mind was all the sins that i have done and how i wish all my sins were forgiven.

This year's Ramadhan, a really special one for me :)

Teacher's day

This year's teacher day, was a great day for me. Never thought i would miss the school that i dread goin to the last 4 years of my life dearly. Bicycle trips, dirty pants, "umbrella hair", "dun talk just smile philosophy"..how nerd can i be? haha

so i left boon lay with so much memories. How i come to school as early as 630 when i was sec and 2. i and norman would meet up in the canteen and talk about life. haha..he always share interesting stories with me. then the rushing last 10 minutes before school starts and most of us has yet to finish our homeworks. but eventually, everyone manage to finish most of the time with each other's cooperation..heheh. then there's the teachers. the teacher i miss most? Ms Amy Chong. though she is strict and fierce, i still adore her. she make geography lessons more exciting and she is just someone so approachable. i and norman used to have small talks with her and it was as though we were close friends.

Lessons, yea..its the least missed. though i miss the sound of the bell and cheeky classmates who make a fool out of the teachers. ahhhhh...i miss Boon Lay!

Those who are still in the school, cherish this 4 years in boon Lay. its the most memorable school life. u'll never get to experience the decency and innocence later in ur life. this is where true friendship begins. this is where ur values and moral are build upon. dun mind the stressful homeworks and long dragging hours in school, in time to come, u are gonna miss those moments.

tilll then, have a nice day :)

say cheeseeeee!

cheeseberdebar

16 patty altogether

a homemade patty

2) onion, garlic and cheeseeee

1) minced beef

Today i decided to cook. Since my mum is not at home until break fast, she asked me to cook anything that can be found in the fridge. guess wad i found..frozen minced beef!

was unsure what to cook, looked for recipes on the net and i found this interesting dish. its called the tasty hamburger..haha. Ingredients needed was just garlic, onion and salt. the food seems as boring as its name. so i decided to create my own!

i call it cheeseberdebar. i've seen some chef do it on tv, so why not i try it. there was no cheese in the fridge. so i went down to the market to buy the cheapest cheese i can find cos budget was limited..haha. so i got all the ingredients! and so it begins. i chopped the onions, then cut the garlic. i was crying while cutting the onions XD hahaha..it was so painful that i cant open my eyes for about 1 minute. after the dramatic cutting, i just add everything to the minced beef. add a pinch of salt and pepper, some tumeric powder and secret ingredient, Lingam's special chilli sauce..dun tell anyone ok?

all that and i whisk all the ingredients together. the smell was awesome. then here comes the cheese. i placed the cheese in between two layers of thin patty. to ensure that cheese does not leak out during cooking, ensure that the cheese is fully covered :D and there it goes into the hot frying pan. it did not look like i expected it to be, nevertheless, it taste superb! cooking is so much fun, it helps to release stress too. so why not whip out your own dish next time. till then..take care!

The Sick Moon

it was National Day, 7.00pm. how it started, ask the chef. never expected this coming.

but right now, its just another story in my life with untold endings. to be continued..

So its Friday night. today's terawih at assyakirin with Hanis could probably be my last. hopefully not. so tmr there is RYC camp at Alkhair mosque. may all the campers have a great 3day 2 night camp. wanted to go, but exams stress is hitting me. cant just leave all the notes behind. May God forgive me for putting exams before Him.

See how easily we can put aside our ibadah aside just because of worldly things like exam, work and assignments. sometimes, i just wish i can sweep all these thing aside and just spend the whole of my life to on the knowledge of the akhirat. thats not impossible but almost impossible. There is still a lot of things out there that im missing. how i envy those who can read the Quran frequently, those who know sunnah and hadiths at the back of their hands. i dont wish to be as good, but im just someone who wants to learn all this before its too late. Death is near day by day. The ground that we stepping on, one day, we will be stepped by them :'(

May Allah have mercy on us. amin

who?

Alhamdullilah, now its already the 15th day of Ramadan. May all my friends be in good health and may they be blessed in this holy month. Amin.

been studying quite hard this pass few days. except for yesterday, took a break by roaming around Singapore with Hanis aimlessly..haha. few more days and school will reopen. then its exam week, during hari raya. hopefully things go well and exam papers would be easy. like as if that will happen :/

Today is full moon. how beautiful it is, no words can describe it. a reminder to us that God is Great and He is the Creator of all things. today's mood: kinda bitter, somewhat moody. waking up getting to know that my phone text and call somebody without me telling it to do so..haha.

hmmm..its not the time to get into relationships. a reminder to self, cinta adalah sebuah perasaan yang wujud pada setiap manusia dan ianya adalah fitrah hidup dan tidak dapat dielakkan. but to think of it, im not in the position to love someone else. i've got to learn to love myself first. there is still a lot of things i want to learn in this world. i have big dreams, to be a Hafiz one day, to give my own sermons, to change people's life with my knowledge and to be an inspiring coach one day. yea, all these is far within my reach. be it alone, or better still if i have this special someone who would be there for me always, i wanna reach my dreams. if love comes, then it comes. if it was never meant to be, then i would have to let it go.

Love, please come again and dont go, i need you.

Syamil - Hasbi Robbi

a very heartwarming zikir. do spend a moment to hear it :')

my past

Sometimes, i think im just to careful writing down things here. kinda of not having the freedom of what i want to write. basically because i am afraid that people might get offended by what i wrote or they just wouldn't like what i wrote,

i think this is gonna change. i wanna write what i really feel inside.

sometimes i feel myself as being lucky in a sense that i never really know what solat is, i didnt even know Quran exist back then. i never knew what those curly curly word means or how they sound. i remembered my first time reciting An-nas to my Ustaz when i was primary 2. i was crying instead of reciting. i was crying from home till i stepped into the class. i was the only one who didn't know how to read. The Ustaz gave me a skeptical look when i recite the surah. then he said to me; "ape yang ko bace ni nak, takpe, lain kali cuba lagi eh "

something hit me when i was primary 4. my friend ask, "kau tau sembahyang?" i was like..."tau..siape seh tak tau" from then on i started to feel guilty that i dun even know how perform prayers. i used to go back with my friend on the 172 bus which goes through the malay cemetry. he asked me, "kau tau bace fatihah?" i said " mesti lah" then he asked for us to pray together when passing through the cemetry because we were scared. then i came out with a brilliant idea. "ape kate kte bace dalam hati? siape habes bace dulu menang." it was like an excuse because i dun even know how recite fatihah. so yeaa...i seemed so pro by my gullible friend cos each time we recite, i finished first. i dun want him thinking i dunno how to read so i just took the chance to finish "reciting" first.

few yrs later, something sad happened to my family. i dun think i wanna share this. but lets just say he was not well received in pulau tekong during his ns. he came back. being different from his usual self. he came back with a "tiger". from that moment, my house was filled with prayers and zikir. hoping that this tiger would go away. i was very scared back then. i didn't know what is happening, why the are saying things that i've never heard before. so yea..i started to learn short phrases like "astarghfirullahaladzim alazi la illah ha illah hu wal hayyu qayyum wa atubu ilaik." i remembered this was the first zikir i learned. i read it everyday when im in the bus and when i was in doing nothing like waiting for the bus.

the tiger eventually went away. few days later, i was sitting in front of the radio. then the azan sounded. it was magrib. my mum was getting ready to solat. i was outside with my father. i looked at him. i wanted to ask something, but i think i didn't ask. the azan kinda moved me to start perform solat. i started reading the pink book, mari sembahyang. there it begins the new chapter to my life. i took the book as my "guidance" to how to pray,may the writer of the book be blessed. amin. but He is the one who gave me the hidayah and guide me to perform the solat. i am truthfully thankful for that.:')

Alhamdullilah now, i m just glad that i know how perform solat, recite Fatihah and know what the Quran is.

yippidie yay!

so much thing i want to write here.

this yr Ramadan like very cooling huh. rainy days. hmmmm..like Hanis said, as we grow older we start to realize that fasting is not just about abstaining ourselves from food and drinks, its about how we do it as an ibadah. preventing ourselves from following our nafsu is quite a challenge. Women wearing clothes that is mata-joloking. Guys, im sure its hard to prevent ourselves from taking a glance at them. apart from that, we take gossiping too lightly that we tend to mengumpat without realizing it. another thing is about having to control your anger. for me, i really wanna smack my brother right now. i just find him super irritating and super annoying. you can call it sibling rivalry but sometimes it comes to a point that i want him to completely disappear from my life. how i envy siblings which are very close to each other. haha i just hope my Ramadan will not be wasted on such things.

yesterday went to esplanade library to study with hanis. it was planned to be at the national library but it turns out that we cant study in the reference room. what nonsense...library so big but only a small pathetic study lounge. so yea..we went to esplanade. looking at what he is studying, i start to give second thoughts to my current course. he took culinary, which the job scope is most probably a chef. mine, there is a variety of job opportunity, like asst nutritionist, gym instructor, p.e teacher and even a cleaner. hah..of course i can be a cleaner if i want to. what he learns is very related to his course. he works mainly with food which i really like too. for me, the modules that comes with nutrition, health and wellness course is just too hard for me to handle. chemistry and maths. the two killers that drives me to quit my current course. i dunno whether im not hardworking enough or mayb im just slow in such subjects. if this semester result is pathetic like the study lounge in bras basah lib, i am thinking of changing my course. see how la ehh..its not easy to change2 course. for now i have to put in the extra effort to do well.

hmmmm..i wonder if i've went overboard. sometimes i just cant handle girls, i either freak them out or bored them to death. im slowly learning how girls think and what they expect from guys. if life comes with a manual, it would'nt be so hard. so yeaa...im looking forward for this friday and saturday. huhu ^^.

first week of holiday gonna end soon. left with 2 more weeks to catch up on studies and preparation for final year exam after school reopens. Im gonna be dead meat if i dun start revising by next week.

so yea, its the fourth day of Ramadan! of all the years, i have the feeling that this year is gonna be a special Ramadan for me. not to brag or what, but i am just glad that i was able to perform subuh prayers in congregation in masjid everyday because its school holiday. it just gives me a good start to a day and drives me to do good for the rest of the day :)

hmm..im not sure why, but i just feel much happier this pass few days. Selamat Berpuase!! :D

choices

It was an eye opener. I never thought this kind of thing could happen till i saw it with my own eyes. they were blinded. i guess this is the period of their time where they make wrong decisions. i was helpless. i shld not have stayed to see them in that situation. but their stupidity gained my sympathy. but, God is Merciful. may they be given the hidayah during this holy month to realise what they did was not right..amin.

And to all Muslims out there, Happy Fasting!! :D

the other half

sometimes, emptiness just creeps to my heart. whispering to me that im in need of someone, someone special. that other half of me. where is she? I've heard once, "God created us in pairs." just wish she could come to my life right now.

but yea. not so empty la my heart. i've got friends to share problems with. but then, i just wanna feel that love u noe. the genuine care and concern of a girl whom u love and she loves you more. relationships does'nt mean you have to rub each other's hand or neglect each other's duty as a Muslim. if there's a will, insyaallah there's a way.

Hey. lets pray that Allah lightens the burden of our Muslim friends in Pakistan who were struck with the disastrous flood. amin...

back to blogging! sorry for the disappearance yaw. haha..quite hyper now, just came back from orchard with hanis yaqub faizul and shahidah. had great time together. just getting our minds away from school. and yeaa..YOG break coming really soon. cant wait for it. the best part of it is that it is during the month of ramadhan. hopefully i can make use of that. my hope for this year's ramadhan is to be better than last year. make sense? hah..means i want to be extra careful this year during fasting. to avoid unecessary pahala deduction.

soooo..wad to update about. oh yea. about school. remembered last time before enrolling into a poly. what i heard from seniors was " dun worry..poly life very slack one" and " there's no such thing as homework in poly". these are just few "advice" from seniors. now, i'll say those advice are bullshit. its really a fast paced life in poly, lectures dun really care, assignments are flowing like a waterfall and subjects just gets tougher. so be prepared if you want to enter poly. another thing is that food are much more expensive. unless u are the lot of money wan then can laa.

yea. now some things about my social life. in school, there are some emotional outrage that recently occured in my class. one of my classmate had argument with her family and she just broke down to tears during class. kinda sad seeing such situation. me and other friends just provide a listening ear. and about other things. i found that nobody can replace my best friends.just hope our friendship last till my last breathe. amin. and yea..there is this girl in my class, who recently just lost her father. she really make me realise how important family are.
u never really appreciate the presence of that someone till u lose them forever. keeping that in mind, i've always wanted to hug and kiss my mum, but nvr did so. just shy..or never seen my brother doing it. the first person i saw doing it was hanis. so loving towards his mother. i wish i could be like him.

so yea..tnx for still visiting my blog. see you in the next post. may peace be upon you.

maybe this is gonna be one of the toughest weeks yet. everyone seems to be falling ill in my class. imagine 3 weeks, with unending assignments. teachers have gone bonkers.

Im still okay. not so depressed. just have got to stay away from railings in sp which looks tempting enough to end everything by jumping over. chey, like real only. ASSignments, u can can kiss my ASS.

soo, had dikir performance last week. have vvip, international students. the song is stuck in my head right now. it goes like this,

anak tekak jalak

tak jemu lalak, syamsiah merangkak,

kuku sangkak, tijak alas hijau katak.

i dunno wad the song means but its nice.

last sunday, went out with Hans and Blingqubz. we ate tulang at beach road! had lots of laughter and flying plates there.

thats about it..chalo bete :)

eclipse.

i wanna be like Edward Cullen :)

just came back from watchin eclipse! its a must watch i tell you. i think im gonna be a fanatic of twilight. watching Bella and Edward in their scenes just gives me this breezy feeling..like im really in the forest admiring their affection.
soo..come back to reality..haha. last weekend i had sang singa purba camp. (performing arts group) though there were only about 12 campers, the camp was still a blast! learned lots of new things such zapin, traditional music and theatrical drama. had gala night where we are suppose to wear our secondary sch uniform and dance all night long.i just did the aerobic moves though.and...i won the "paling jambu" award! maybe beacause of my butt.really had fun during the camp.
thenn..school starts. had 3 mst, done and over with. so far results are fine. and ya, Dikir is having lots and lots of performance this coming month. soo..yea..the tiresome dikir training again. wanna go silat but..dikir has less and less people coming. just hope it wont die off. so much for..kembalinyaaaa putraaa~~ bleargh.
last but not least, im a happy guy :)

open your eyes.

imagine yourself in a near-death situation.
everything that you've work for in your life is going to leave you.
Nothing gonna stay on with you, except for all the deeds that you've done here on earth.

You would be desperate to
Beg forgiveness from friends, relatives, family, anyone that you've have wronged.
Donate whatever you have to the needy, even if you are left with nothing, cos u noe its nt gonna be of any use anymore.
Kiss your mother's cheek for the last time.
perform your last solat even when you are not able to.
hear the last azan in your life..
Read and feel the Quran.
forgive all the misdeed that people have done to you.
Love those who you hate.

The list could go on forever. fear of death, is something that can really open your eyes and make us realise our life's purpose. we have our flaws. sometimes we just need someone to remind us where we've gone wrong. so lets remind each other okay friends? :)
Right now, im pening banget about unfinished reports and other school stuffs. so yea...thanks for reading, till the next post! :D

wujud.

silat camp was a blast! make lots of new friends, had some unforgetable memories, and yea, really enjoyed myself.

about the unforgetable memory. it was supposed to be a nightwalk i heard, but they changed it to something similar like "wujud", where we campers were placed in somewhere dark and secluded for 2 hours. boys alone, girls in pairs. when they first annouced about the activity, i already had shivers thinking about it. worst, one of the seniors shared his terrifying stories about how he was disturbed by a ghost in sp just before the activity. so yea..they gave us a lightstick and we were brought to our destination.

i was placed beside a staircase. the feeling....i tell you beb..tak leh angs! the lightstick became my bestfriend. i stared at the lightstick, the lightstick stared back at me.first few minutes, i tried to keep cool by reciting some verses and think about the loved ones..it really distracted me from imagining things. so yea..situation became less tense. heard some noises, footsteps and all.
minutes passed and some seniors came to check on me. i was still breathing, so no worries.1 hour or so passed..and i became from scared to bored. i tried hard not to sleep even though i snoozed a few times. then finally 2 angels came to take me away.(the seniors). very relieved that it was over. heard how the other campers were terrified by home-made ghosts. like usual, i just listened to their fascinating stories..i kept mum cause i had no extraordinary stories to share. so yea..i was not disturbed, good for me.

that's about it i guess. thanks for reading..love you! :)

MST week is over. Dikir barat competition is over.here comes the term break.Hooray!

MST. its not officially over actually, cos i still 3 more test to go. its okay, glad the hard ones are done and over with, which is maths and chemistry. im confident of a pass. soo..there's 5 reports to be done and there's a cookin competition on the 24th. life just gets harder, but i'll just face with a smileee.

Dikir barat. Glad that it is over but still i miss the training sessions so much. the pain and laughter we shared together, its a memory i'll cherish bro. all the hard work and Keturunan Putra got an overall placing of 4th. something im really proud of cos i really i enjoyed that 10 mins on the stage doing something i never thought i was able to do. so yeaa..im still a happy guy after the comp.

silat camp is coming really soon. looking forward for a great 3 day 2 nights. good day friends.:)

holding on

Pheww...one week has passed and i was down for 2 days. I had quite a heavy migraine. During one of the tutorials, I even slept on the floor and the lecturer can’t be bothered. Maybe she did’nt even noticed I was snoozing under the table...haha. so i went to see the doctor yesterday. My queue number was so far away. The migraine attacked me again and i was too weak to handle it. Being not in the right state of mind, i just lay my body at the corner of the clinic. Everyone passing by gave me a weird look. Then one kind achi came and lift me up. She asked me whether she can have my queue number so that she can ask the doctor to call me up immediately. I’ll never forget her kindness. She told me everyone outside was scared seeing me lying down there, some even thought i was drunk...haha. Alhamdulillah, am recovering already.

Dikir barat. Training everyday just gives me this sucky feeling. I know competition is next sat 5 jun, but i m just not ready for such a big event. I came in and i noe nothing about dikir, the next thing i noe is that they are sending names for competition. I think they should be more patient, build a good team, then send people for comp. Now what they are having are just few experienced people with mostly freshies who just came to know how dikir is like. Selection is next Monday or Tuesday. I dun really look forward to being selected . but if selected, then i’ll do my best to bring glory for Keturunan Putra! :)