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cheeseberdebar

16 patty altogether

a homemade patty

2) onion, garlic and cheeseeee

1) minced beef

Today i decided to cook. Since my mum is not at home until break fast, she asked me to cook anything that can be found in the fridge. guess wad i found..frozen minced beef!

was unsure what to cook, looked for recipes on the net and i found this interesting dish. its called the tasty hamburger..haha. Ingredients needed was just garlic, onion and salt. the food seems as boring as its name. so i decided to create my own!

i call it cheeseberdebar. i've seen some chef do it on tv, so why not i try it. there was no cheese in the fridge. so i went down to the market to buy the cheapest cheese i can find cos budget was limited..haha. so i got all the ingredients! and so it begins. i chopped the onions, then cut the garlic. i was crying while cutting the onions XD hahaha..it was so painful that i cant open my eyes for about 1 minute. after the dramatic cutting, i just add everything to the minced beef. add a pinch of salt and pepper, some tumeric powder and secret ingredient, Lingam's special chilli sauce..dun tell anyone ok?

all that and i whisk all the ingredients together. the smell was awesome. then here comes the cheese. i placed the cheese in between two layers of thin patty. to ensure that cheese does not leak out during cooking, ensure that the cheese is fully covered :D and there it goes into the hot frying pan. it did not look like i expected it to be, nevertheless, it taste superb! cooking is so much fun, it helps to release stress too. so why not whip out your own dish next time. till then..take care!

The Sick Moon

it was National Day, 7.00pm. how it started, ask the chef. never expected this coming.

but right now, its just another story in my life with untold endings. to be continued..

So its Friday night. today's terawih at assyakirin with Hanis could probably be my last. hopefully not. so tmr there is RYC camp at Alkhair mosque. may all the campers have a great 3day 2 night camp. wanted to go, but exams stress is hitting me. cant just leave all the notes behind. May God forgive me for putting exams before Him.

See how easily we can put aside our ibadah aside just because of worldly things like exam, work and assignments. sometimes, i just wish i can sweep all these thing aside and just spend the whole of my life to on the knowledge of the akhirat. thats not impossible but almost impossible. There is still a lot of things out there that im missing. how i envy those who can read the Quran frequently, those who know sunnah and hadiths at the back of their hands. i dont wish to be as good, but im just someone who wants to learn all this before its too late. Death is near day by day. The ground that we stepping on, one day, we will be stepped by them :'(

May Allah have mercy on us. amin

who?

Alhamdullilah, now its already the 15th day of Ramadan. May all my friends be in good health and may they be blessed in this holy month. Amin.

been studying quite hard this pass few days. except for yesterday, took a break by roaming around Singapore with Hanis aimlessly..haha. few more days and school will reopen. then its exam week, during hari raya. hopefully things go well and exam papers would be easy. like as if that will happen :/

Today is full moon. how beautiful it is, no words can describe it. a reminder to us that God is Great and He is the Creator of all things. today's mood: kinda bitter, somewhat moody. waking up getting to know that my phone text and call somebody without me telling it to do so..haha.

hmmm..its not the time to get into relationships. a reminder to self, cinta adalah sebuah perasaan yang wujud pada setiap manusia dan ianya adalah fitrah hidup dan tidak dapat dielakkan. but to think of it, im not in the position to love someone else. i've got to learn to love myself first. there is still a lot of things i want to learn in this world. i have big dreams, to be a Hafiz one day, to give my own sermons, to change people's life with my knowledge and to be an inspiring coach one day. yea, all these is far within my reach. be it alone, or better still if i have this special someone who would be there for me always, i wanna reach my dreams. if love comes, then it comes. if it was never meant to be, then i would have to let it go.

Love, please come again and dont go, i need you.

Syamil - Hasbi Robbi

a very heartwarming zikir. do spend a moment to hear it :')

my past

Sometimes, i think im just to careful writing down things here. kinda of not having the freedom of what i want to write. basically because i am afraid that people might get offended by what i wrote or they just wouldn't like what i wrote,

i think this is gonna change. i wanna write what i really feel inside.

sometimes i feel myself as being lucky in a sense that i never really know what solat is, i didnt even know Quran exist back then. i never knew what those curly curly word means or how they sound. i remembered my first time reciting An-nas to my Ustaz when i was primary 2. i was crying instead of reciting. i was crying from home till i stepped into the class. i was the only one who didn't know how to read. The Ustaz gave me a skeptical look when i recite the surah. then he said to me; "ape yang ko bace ni nak, takpe, lain kali cuba lagi eh "

something hit me when i was primary 4. my friend ask, "kau tau sembahyang?" i was like..."tau..siape seh tak tau" from then on i started to feel guilty that i dun even know how perform prayers. i used to go back with my friend on the 172 bus which goes through the malay cemetry. he asked me, "kau tau bace fatihah?" i said " mesti lah" then he asked for us to pray together when passing through the cemetry because we were scared. then i came out with a brilliant idea. "ape kate kte bace dalam hati? siape habes bace dulu menang." it was like an excuse because i dun even know how recite fatihah. so yeaa...i seemed so pro by my gullible friend cos each time we recite, i finished first. i dun want him thinking i dunno how to read so i just took the chance to finish "reciting" first.

few yrs later, something sad happened to my family. i dun think i wanna share this. but lets just say he was not well received in pulau tekong during his ns. he came back. being different from his usual self. he came back with a "tiger". from that moment, my house was filled with prayers and zikir. hoping that this tiger would go away. i was very scared back then. i didn't know what is happening, why the are saying things that i've never heard before. so yea..i started to learn short phrases like "astarghfirullahaladzim alazi la illah ha illah hu wal hayyu qayyum wa atubu ilaik." i remembered this was the first zikir i learned. i read it everyday when im in the bus and when i was in doing nothing like waiting for the bus.

the tiger eventually went away. few days later, i was sitting in front of the radio. then the azan sounded. it was magrib. my mum was getting ready to solat. i was outside with my father. i looked at him. i wanted to ask something, but i think i didn't ask. the azan kinda moved me to start perform solat. i started reading the pink book, mari sembahyang. there it begins the new chapter to my life. i took the book as my "guidance" to how to pray,may the writer of the book be blessed. amin. but He is the one who gave me the hidayah and guide me to perform the solat. i am truthfully thankful for that.:')

Alhamdullilah now, i m just glad that i know how perform solat, recite Fatihah and know what the Quran is.

yippidie yay!

so much thing i want to write here.

this yr Ramadan like very cooling huh. rainy days. hmmmm..like Hanis said, as we grow older we start to realize that fasting is not just about abstaining ourselves from food and drinks, its about how we do it as an ibadah. preventing ourselves from following our nafsu is quite a challenge. Women wearing clothes that is mata-joloking. Guys, im sure its hard to prevent ourselves from taking a glance at them. apart from that, we take gossiping too lightly that we tend to mengumpat without realizing it. another thing is about having to control your anger. for me, i really wanna smack my brother right now. i just find him super irritating and super annoying. you can call it sibling rivalry but sometimes it comes to a point that i want him to completely disappear from my life. how i envy siblings which are very close to each other. haha i just hope my Ramadan will not be wasted on such things.

yesterday went to esplanade library to study with hanis. it was planned to be at the national library but it turns out that we cant study in the reference room. what nonsense...library so big but only a small pathetic study lounge. so yea..we went to esplanade. looking at what he is studying, i start to give second thoughts to my current course. he took culinary, which the job scope is most probably a chef. mine, there is a variety of job opportunity, like asst nutritionist, gym instructor, p.e teacher and even a cleaner. hah..of course i can be a cleaner if i want to. what he learns is very related to his course. he works mainly with food which i really like too. for me, the modules that comes with nutrition, health and wellness course is just too hard for me to handle. chemistry and maths. the two killers that drives me to quit my current course. i dunno whether im not hardworking enough or mayb im just slow in such subjects. if this semester result is pathetic like the study lounge in bras basah lib, i am thinking of changing my course. see how la ehh..its not easy to change2 course. for now i have to put in the extra effort to do well.

hmmmm..i wonder if i've went overboard. sometimes i just cant handle girls, i either freak them out or bored them to death. im slowly learning how girls think and what they expect from guys. if life comes with a manual, it would'nt be so hard. so yeaa...im looking forward for this friday and saturday. huhu ^^.

first week of holiday gonna end soon. left with 2 more weeks to catch up on studies and preparation for final year exam after school reopens. Im gonna be dead meat if i dun start revising by next week.

so yea, its the fourth day of Ramadan! of all the years, i have the feeling that this year is gonna be a special Ramadan for me. not to brag or what, but i am just glad that i was able to perform subuh prayers in congregation in masjid everyday because its school holiday. it just gives me a good start to a day and drives me to do good for the rest of the day :)

hmm..im not sure why, but i just feel much happier this pass few days. Selamat Berpuase!! :D

choices

It was an eye opener. I never thought this kind of thing could happen till i saw it with my own eyes. they were blinded. i guess this is the period of their time where they make wrong decisions. i was helpless. i shld not have stayed to see them in that situation. but their stupidity gained my sympathy. but, God is Merciful. may they be given the hidayah during this holy month to realise what they did was not right..amin.

And to all Muslims out there, Happy Fasting!! :D

the other half

sometimes, emptiness just creeps to my heart. whispering to me that im in need of someone, someone special. that other half of me. where is she? I've heard once, "God created us in pairs." just wish she could come to my life right now.

but yea. not so empty la my heart. i've got friends to share problems with. but then, i just wanna feel that love u noe. the genuine care and concern of a girl whom u love and she loves you more. relationships does'nt mean you have to rub each other's hand or neglect each other's duty as a Muslim. if there's a will, insyaallah there's a way.

Hey. lets pray that Allah lightens the burden of our Muslim friends in Pakistan who were struck with the disastrous flood. amin...