one of days that i would remember for the rest of my life. The day SPSC made me shed tears. Tears of disappointment. Never thought i would be that weak. Tears were flowing till i reach home. that was how bad it was. i dunno why i teared. just the feeling that i dont belong anywhere. it disheartend me further when no one really cares i left. that tells me everything. even the ones thought would call or text, couldnt care less. i know where i stand now. wouldnt to get to emotionally attached to anyone. till then, SPSC, thanks for the memory.

mengapa kau bersedih

The mouth says one thing, the heart says another. I just realized we cant lie to ourselves. I said to myself i have gotten over her. but, it seems like everytime i think of her, the heart skips a beat. Its not a good thing of course. you know what, sometimes i just wish she would just tell me off straight to the face, "go away from my life" it would be little less hurtful.

Farewell TWSS

Parting is such a sweet sorrow. Never knew I would be like this at end of this 4 week internship. I almost shed a tear when the students made a thank you card individually. InsyaAllah, I will meet them again. Amin.

Words are not enough to express how i felt today. One of the best experiences in my life. I really felt that genuine care for the students. hmm..maybe I should pursue to become a teacher? If i get the sponsored scholarship, if there is where my rezeki is, may Allah show me the guidance.

I feel so, down.

In need

I want to have a heart to heart talk with someone. Where i can just say whatever i want, without having fear or uneasiness. Someone who understands what I am going through. yea..everyone has their own problems. and we just need that someone to share it with. just a pair of ears and a listening heart.

I stood quite a while in the shower just now. Should i accept this post as the president. Truly, I have this, deep down under my heart, intention to actually get myself away from SPSC. I dunno why. for all the reasons. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzz........