bukan niat ku

I can never say enough of how wonderful it would be if i had a great brother. lets just say, im rather mesmerized and  clueless on how siblings can be so close. its clear that im not in good terms with my brother. he's just, so ugh. even though i try to be nice with him, it would end up differently somehow. every single word he lets out just seems to make me feel irritated or feel annoyed. i dont know. maybe its just me. i just gave him a rude remark just now. He asked me not to set the alarm at 530 am in the morning. i just told him to "diam la" and the next few conversation..i shall not reveal it here. but..haish. not my intention to hurt anyone.