There's a reason why it's call a committee. You need to be committed. But, when situation comes at its worst, you just wished that you didn't make that mistake of committing into something you thought was possible. What I am blabering about. I know, somebody has got to do it. But, I just need that push. Sometimes, small things pushes me back. Every time I took a step forward, there's just something that pull my step back. May Allah show me guidance. Whenever I see her talking to other guys, I get jealous. It seems that I can never strike a decent conversation with her. It has been year.